= ^ Peaceful World ^ =

~ * Guilty * ~

2011-01-19T09:35:00.003+08:00

Guilty....realised an old fren of mine took up salsa recently...but when I saw him I tried to blend in with the wall.

Dun really understand why I did tht, but it seems tht I have a habit of "hiding" from ppl I know when I sort of "bumped" into them unintentionally.

But then, there is no excuse for my action. Dunno if he saw me, if he did, he will prob feel hurt. And yet I dunno how to apologise.. sighx.

*Guilt*

~ * heartbroken *~

2011-01-14T21:56:00.002+08:00

Got a call from my younger sis when I was abt to knock off today, she lost her phone. It wasn't a big thing (My bro is gd at losing his fone and having me to handle the rest), but my heart sanked when I could hear her sniffling while telling me. It kinda hurtx when I sensed how upset she was. I cursed the person who actually pickpocketed her fone at Orchard.

It's jux a phone tht could be replaced but becoz tht idiot caused her to be so upset, I feel murderous. After reporting the case to the police, she is now actively checking on iphone tracker if the person switch on her fone. I can understand her anguish tht the phone was stolen and nt lost cox of her own mishap. She was just one "lucky" victim picked by the pickpocket who preyed 0n young, defenceless teen.

Sighx, hope can make a trip to the Apple shop soon to replace her phone, it hurtx to see her crestfallen and devastated over a phone. And I prayed every moment for the idiot to be caught and be given his deserved punishment!

~ * Update * ~

2010-12-22T10:32:00.003+08:00

Enjoyed myself tremendously in Melbourne. Left my heart with my best fren's puppy :)
Christmas is round the corner. It is a great time to catch up with frens. Met up with some frens, many of which I have not seen in months and even years.
Guess not much effort on my part to try contact them, but still I enjoy their company and definitely miss the times where we hanged out with each other almost other day. But well it was kinda depressing tht a fren of mine is still pretty down and did not turn up for the gathering, hope he will feel better soon...
Those days I was always going from one camp to another,doing the same debriefing session and horsing ard with the other instructors. I missed the times when my campers hugged me and cried after going thru 3 days of team work tht kinda change their perspectives abit. I missed my scouting days where I went for camps after camps, events after events.
Though ppl always say we should look forward, but I cant help but wonder... Am I doing what I like now? No doubt I like my work, my frens now, my new acquired hobby of Salsa... but I loved being outdoor doing camps and kayak out in the sea. But all these seems so far away now...
As 2010 is coming to an end, it's time to reflect what I have done in the past 1 year and new goals and resolutions for 2011. But for now I will enjoy the last few days of 2010 and leave the reflections and resolutions to 1st Jan 11.
2 of my frens are going oversea for work, my best wishes to them and hope I can see them in SG again :)

~ = * Buzy buzy * = ~

2010-11-03T08:18:00.002+08:00

Though work was pretty busy, I had a good week ^_^v esp now Melbourne is juz round the corner.

Went to Shanghai Dolly 2 weekends ago with my Salsa frens, kinda eyeopening. Some of the singers were quite cute :), overall it wasn't bad at all although the crowd was quite distinct- either the very mature or the very young.

Last weekend was a frantic weekend, with money changing, groceries shopping plus Halloween night. Halloween was fun! Though I din dressed up much, alot did at JJ. I had a field dayn feasting on the diff gory costumes put on by the Salsareos. One of my fren turned up as a ghost and she really looked like one. It will be priceless to see the policeman reaction should there be a road block. I heard the scene at Clark Quay was pretty good too.

There was a "chopping" case at Downtown East during Halloween, and some of the people were wondering if it was a gig. Kinda sad that a "staring" incident ened up in 1 death and 4 arrested.
The "staring" thing has always been there since my younger days. There was upon a time where I stared at ppl too...heng nuthing happened to me. I was debating with my fren, if there was a security guard with no arms but a baton, will he stop the "chopper". I guess not...unless he is tire of living..in cases like this, i guess the best is to whip up the phone and dial 999.

We all had our young and immature days... looking back, it is kinda of stupid to stare to show your displeasure.. but like us, I guess the message dun get across to youths today... It is jux a stupid culture tht was pass on years after years in sec...hopefully the youths today will wake up after this chopping case.

~ = * Upsetz * = ~

2010-10-28T08:10:00.004+08:00

Been quite a devastating week.....

1. Twin Disaster in Indonesia

Saw the news broadcast over Channel newsasia on Tuesday, thought it was a small earthquake, but turned out to be Tsunami, Earthquake plus Volcano.... I feel for the residents who are affected, they might haf lost their love ones in the merciless disaster that swept across them without warning. People who are dead are gone, the ones who suffer the anguish are those who live....

It is a blessing I am in Singapore when there is litte chance that natural disasters of this scale hit us. I pray for the people hoping things will resume back to normal for them soon. May sound a little corny....May the dead rest in peace....

2. Insensitive people

Many a times, one may meet someone who is insensitive in words and unintentionally hurt you. I met one, early in the morning in my office. The topic was nt even wat she mentioned... all of a sudden, she said it. In any case, it is none of my business, and if she wanna make me feel better by letting me know, then probably she is nt the right person to tell me that.

What's her motive, i dunno and dun wish to guess, but the fact is.. I am affected. It bothers me so much.

~* Marvell USS Day 2010 *~

2010-10-14T13:18:00.003+08:00

Went to USS on 2nd Oct ^_^v . Kinda fun... The Mummy ride was kinda thrilling, though the ride was pretty short but it managed to instill some kind of fear (erm..for the first ride). The maze to the ride is pretty cool, we went in a few times and somehow the setting will change a little and the "egyptian baddies" would hide and "scare" us. The gers were freaked out while I was laffing away.

Shrek 4D was equally good! I particularly like the air con...it was a life saver on a hot, blazing afternoon. Shall not spoil the fun by revealing the content :)

I simply adore the Mascots walking ard taking pic with the public. Hmm.. Frankestein is kinda scary I guess, my sis's fren totally freaked out and the gp pic look like Frank is holding me hostage while my sis and her friends were looking in "horror". I missed Puss in boots T.T, it looked so cute and cuddly. I heard it was pretty cheeky when it took pic with my sis and frens.
The next time I go, I will definitely abduct it!!

That day, we celebrated 2 colleagues' bday at Chillies. The food was so-so but the company was great! In the evening Carol came in for firework ^_^v and we all had dinner at a fantastic pizza place. Pretty value for money, we only paid $8 each for a wide spread of food! The firework was ok I guess, not a firework person.

After the USS, I was totally exhausted but nevertheless I went to JJ Social. Somehow that was a bad move, after 5min or so, I ended up sitting on the floor with my whole body and feet aching.

It was defintely fun!

Now I am looking forward to my Melbourne trip in Nov ... gg Penang tml.. Kinda look forward to the glorious food!!!

~ * Mood Down * ~

2010-09-06T23:07:00.002+08:00

A rough start on a Monday morning. Gt scolded for nuthing... sighx ..managed to maintain my cool while @ work.

Dun understand what haf the disruption of train svc @ Clementi n Jurong gt to do with me. sighx..Guys oso gt PMS..sianx..

~ * Tired * ~

2010-08-11T22:10:00.003+08:00

Beginning to feel the strain of activities on weekend continuously for the past 1 month. Somehow, I kinda feel wobbly nowadays.

Weekends were fun though, did quite a bit of catching up with my family and friends. Esp during my sis bday and cousin's wedding. My sis being my sis..took lots of pictures n I sux in the pic...like some lump of fat >.< ok time to exercise. My leg is feeling better, so I guess I will resume my jogging soon!

Glad tht my buddy is back from Aust, haven't seen her for a year or more I guess. We had a mini discussion on why we could still remain good frens despite the distance. Then I realised she is of low maintanence. I am one who can make friends easily, but I dun keep frens. I am the kind who pop by once in a bluen moon ..then I will disappear for a long time. Ironically my best frens are from my sec school days, even the guy frens ..only a couple from uni.

Not everyone can accept who I am.

~ * Hangover * ~

2010-08-08T22:16:00.003+08:00

Been stoning whole day, I felt void of emotion. No feeling, dun even feel like eating... doesn;t help tht I din sleep much ...
Guess I had too much fun last night, but strangely I was kinda sober last nite, jux couldn't really walk str8 thx to the pair of heels I was on.

Yest was my cousin's wedding too, met up with my relatives and cousins. Had a interesting but embarassing time during the wedding dinner. In the midst of my misfortune, I received an sms from my colleague, n thus my nite of "adventure" began...

Really hate the hangover effect, hope it goes away soon...

~ * Disasterous * ~

2010-07-07T16:05:00.002+08:00

Was glad to meet up with my cousin last week, sharing alot of inner thoughts and fear tat I faced since tht fateful night years ago. It feels so much better talking to people who understand what I haf gone though and not people who haf not and talk as if it is a drama.

And that was what happened to me last night thrashing out my mood totally for the night. It doesn't helped that I had gone though 1 round during lunch but that was still alright coz they only discussed on the surface and not go into depth.

During dinner, it's like making me go thru the pain once again vivid description of the entire process. All the feeling came pouring back. To the rest it may be juz a comments/drama and what they thought it would feel. But to me, every word bring me thru the process of it once more. I could understand why the widow of the Hilton groom case committed suicide. The pain of taking a person to the height of their life and within a few hours throw her down right to the bottom is indescriptable. I have been facing it for 5 years and still bear the blunt every single day without closure and probably will face it in the rest of my life.

It's an amaze I din burst out in tears, I was fighting back my tears thoughout till i cannot bear it and stood up and walk away. Luckily the rest followed and did not realised what happened. Perhaps next time I will either walk away and simply jux change topic. People wun understand anyway, to them it's jux another drama/tragedy.... they will nv understand the pain.

~ * Supermarket * ~

2010-06-22T08:14:00.003+08:00

Had some time be4 appointment..thus I went into NTUC see see look look.. I always love the supermarket. I used to browse thru the shelves, see what was available. Normally I had to supress the urge to buy everything home.

Dunno why, jux by walking past the different sections of the supermarket, without fail it soothes my feelings..My favourite section is the vegetable section. Somehow looking at the greenies make me feel happier ..esp if I can find my fav vege..

Sometimes, I would bring some new products home.. like frozen shisamo etc, my mum will shake her head. Many a times, I would buy back frozen pizzas etc..those will end up as my siblings snack.

When there are bbq/steamboat to plan, I will be so happy..nt coz I can eat..but coz I can shop and jux throw everything in my shopping cart. I will go thru the different brands of products and try find the one I used.

But sad to say, after a short 15 min shop yest..I managed to whip 6 cup noodles from the shelves and 4 Archie comics... but after looking at the queue..I put everything back..oh well..actually I dun really need them :)

~ * Still Fuming * ~

2010-06-21T08:47:00.002+08:00

Day 1 after the restaurant played me out.. I am still fuming. My dad consoled me tis morn, reminding me the dinner at the Hawker turned out pretty good..

Sighz so much for my Father's day celebration. I wanted my sis to deco a card for dad earlier, but she reminded me that coz the date clashed so we din dare to do it for the past 5 yrs.. hmm.. maybe a step at a time bah..onli managed to start celebrating last yr.. maybe nxt yr a small card will be good :)

~ * Really pissed * ~

2010-06-20T22:12:00.004+08:00

Decided to on my hp on the way to the Fortune Cuisine Restaurant in Sunset Way. 5 min before we reached the restaurant... they called and informed us that they gave our table away coz we were late. I booked for 7pm and they called at 6.45pm to tell me I was late... Can't believe it, I argued with them stating that I booked for 7pm and they came back with the restaurant being beri crowded and alot of customers at 5.30pm and therefore couldn't hold our table. It was frustrating as I double checked with them yesterday if they accept bookings and they said they did and took my booking.

Super bad service and it's obvious they screwed up, instead of apologising 1st, they accused me of being late. When we reached the shop, the owner insisted that they made a mistake and did kept a table for us.. and offered us a table which the customers jux left and the table still uncleaned. By then, our mood were thrashed and decided to go elsewhere instead.
Will nv go back there again.. nt as if it is super nice or super cheap. It's juz near our fav ice cream place tht's why we chose it.

Fck up.. ended up we tried to get a table at the Chin Huat Restaurant beside, but it was fully booked. We had our dinner at the hawker nearby ... surprisingly the food was good... the crab bee hoon and salted egg crab was superb. I guess it doesn;'t really matter where we had our dinner, as long as we had it as a family. My dad was equally pissed with tht restaurant so even if we took tht table ..he wun be happy eating.

Had a great day slping and watching dvd.. mood was neutral till the event in the night.. >.< pissed! Luckily the great food at the hawker and the ice cream @ daily Scoop saved the day..

~ * Father Day * ~

2010-06-20T01:00:00.002+08:00

Father's Day ... booked a dinner for my family.. we started celebrating Father's Day again last yr..

I hope my dad will enjoy it this year, like he did last yr.

Off my phone after settling all my tuition stuff.... dun wished to be distur ..prob will on it again on mon.

~ * 5th Year * ~

2010-06-19T02:35:00.004+08:00

I survived another 18 Jun.. Another day tht I dread... Day after day I kept asking myself the same questions.... questions tht I could nv seek closure. From crying everyday till now I allowed myself to cry only on anniversaries.

This day is the hardest day for me to pass each year... this year as well... except tht I was buzy in the morn..till evening.. but all the events on tht day replayed in my mind.. what I was doing at tht certain time on tht eventful day.. As the clock strike 8pm..my heart grew heavier....

This is a day I neither wanna go home or haf fun...but today I chose to spend it like ani normal friday in my gp of frens... I chose drinking to numb the pain.. but it did not help as expected but nevertheless I gt though the day,.. smiling..laffiing on the surface....but it jux hurtx so much benneth..now I am alone in the living room..I seemed to see myself lieing down in the living room with my siblings ..helping each other get through the night....I din even noe how I managed to go through the few days of funeral.. the guilt of facing my granny.. facing my aunties..

My family chose to pretend it's jux another normal day every yeaR..no one wished to face or tok abt it though it's on everyone's mind....Time passes but the wound is forever fresh in my heart....memories hurtx even more so on this day. I may haf survive the 18 Jun yr 2010 but there are still so many 18 Jun to go knowing the closure I desperately need will nv be found.

~ * Back from Vietnam * ~

2010-06-15T08:24:00.004+08:00

Had a short trip with my family to HCM over the weekend. Initially did not really look forward to it, what's worse is tht weekend is quite happening. But it turns out to be a fantastic trip! It brought back memories as well... though some details are pretty vague, I recalled I had fun with a few jrs and my classmates 10 yrs ago when I were there.

The trip started with a 2hr bus ride to the Mekong river, follow by a sumptous lch and house cart riding.... and sampan..then back to HCM. The life of Vietnamese is quite simple, They r still pretty rural.. something different from the countries I always visit. There is virtually no shopping >.<

Words can hurt, and I believed my family and I hurt a fren during the trip, but I do not know how to apologise..sighz...

But nevertheless I had fun and knew some of the new uncles in the grassroot organisation.. it is nice knowing what my dad haf been doing in the community, whu he haf been working with. To let him know even if we did not physically join the grassroot activities, we are always behind him!

~ * Sign of Aging * ~

2010-06-07T13:18:00.003+08:00

I still like to think of myself as a kid, but signs r popping out one by one reminding me I am grown up! No longer the little ger who likes to kid ard..
Sign No 1: I have been to quite a few weddings recently. Frens ard me are getting hitched and starting a family, not to mention one of my sec buddy already haf 2 kids in tow. T.T In yrs to come the cute little babies of my frens/cousin is gonna call me auntie >.< Thts a bit scary...

Sign No 2: I cannot imagine I even "met" a long lost fren whom I know thru gaming 2 yrs ago at one of the many weddings I attended. It's kinda ironic I "run" into him at a wedding instead of lan shops where I used to hang out every weekend. Din exactly tok to him at the wedding coz I din spot him but he spotted me. It was lucky he din come up and say hi, I would be stunned XD. But I seriously applaud that he took the effort to find me in fb. It's kinda nice that I gt back a long lost fren.

Sign No 3: I realised that usually after a night of no sleep (either chalet/clubbing/..), my body will ache for at least 2 days and coffee will be my companion for days to come.

=.=" the signs can go on and on... but nevertheless, I am glad I am where I am now. Though abit lost, but I still have my loving family by my side.

Recently I met up with my cousin whu came back from Canada. We grew up together when we were young, but she went to Canada for further studies and I stayed in SG. We hardly see each other or even tok to each other ever since then. This time round I realised I hardly know her. Guess we changed quite a bit. Though our conversation, I realised I changed a lot in term of my thinking. She reminded me of the past..the things I said..the resentment I had towards my bro and how it changed now. I also dunno why I used to think tht way... I guess siblings rivalry gt into me >.< luckily tht cleared as I grew up.

I came to accept he is the only son, so my mum will definitely favour him. But I still hope my parents can let him be more financially independant. He may be spoilt (all 3 of us are), but at least he is not wayward. The only issue is tht he nv really had hardship, from young everything he wants he will haf, on the other had me and my sis we will try it get it ourselves by working although sometimes i still "砍" daddy, it kinda sweet when he buy stuff for me :) though I can get it myself. Hopefully my bro will come to understand that things dun fall from the sky.

~ * Lost * ~

2010-05-18T15:56:00.002+08:00

Been having this lost feeling for a long time....even worse now....having nightmares.. I am scare of myself...

What am I doing.... ?

~ * Aint feeling better * ~

2010-05-05T22:30:00.002+08:00

Seems to be getting from bad to worse... 3 days already...I am still feeling tire and coughing non stop. Worse still, yest my boss sent an email abt rising H1N1 cases, every cough I make..."terrify" my superviser.

Hate it... :(

~ * Sick * ~

2010-05-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

Been buzy lately work, dance, tuition.. All my kids are having exam n it is a bad time to get sick.

Been hafing a bad feeling this morn when I felt my throat itching. I managed to survive till noon where I start coughing, n evening when I start sneezing. Luckily I already went to a doc in the late afternoon.

Guess I've been pushing myself too much nowadays. Sometimes I juz wished to "disappear" awhile and relax, but I couldn't seem to do so. Luckily weekend has been great so far, dancing..meeting both side of my extended family for meals.

~ * Updates * ~

2010-04-26T22:12:00.004+08:00

Been buzy since the last post, busy with work, busy with being busy...

Some Updates...

1) I bought my wii and still enjoying it...
2) I cut down quite alot on dancing...but seems now I haf 3 days of dance instead of 2.
3) My bday over... dun think I ever wanna celebrate it again...
4) Work has been well.. oh..better than well I guess

So what I am buzy with.. I oso dunno...

But well.. Heard tis song on TV... damn nice.. guess I was hiding in some caves 2 yrs ago when it was released...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O2nxr4vj7mk

歌曲：千年之恋
歌手：信乐团

谁在悬崖沏一壶茶温热
前世的牵挂而我在调整千年的时差
爱恨全喝下
岁月在岩石上敲打
我又留长了头发
耐心等待海岸线的变化
大雨就要下
风狠狠的刮谁在害怕

海风一直眷恋着沙你却错过我的年华
错过我新长的枝丫和我的白发

蝴蝶依旧狂恋着花错过我转世的脸颊
你还爱我吗我等你一句话

一生行走望断天崖
最远不过是晚霞而你今生又在哪户人家
欲语泪先下
沙滩上消失的浪花让我慢慢想起家
曾经许下的永远又在哪总是放不下啊
轮回的记忆在风化我将它牢牢记下

~* Goaless Slackerz *~

2010-03-16T08:21:00.003+08:00

In a twinkle of eyes, It's mid mth.. 2 weeks after my previous post, I am still seeking my goals n visions in life.

Over the weekend I was at the IT show. There were tons and tons of ppl, by 3pm, I could hardly move, stuck in the army of "ants". I almost got a Wii ... it was going for $299 with 3 games = $389, but a fren said it's better to get it outside :) so I gave up the thought :)

My sis gt a new notebook, a black one with supposingly value for money specs. I guess I am quite superficial XD, I was aimming at a pink notebook next to it :) but I haf no use for it at all.. I hardly game nowadays, hardly even on my computer after work unless it is for work. After staring at a computer screen for one whole day, the last thing I want to do is stare at another computer screen after work.

Looking forward to my captain ball game tml ^_^, it will gif me some workout!

~ * Buzy or Too free * ~

2010-03-03T08:33:00.002+08:00

Yest one of my colleague exclaimed, you are always so buzy! It set me pondering...am I buzy?

Thinking back on my "lifestyle" recently....
Somehow or another, I managed to filled almost everyday of my week with some commitments whether it's tuition or dance. And after I go home, I dun hit the bed immediately, I watched my DVDs or do the work tht I 打包. During daytime, I am @ work... Even for weekend, I am rushing here n there

But am I really tht buzy? or I am afraid of being too free tht's Y I packed myself with hardly any space to breathe... or perhaps it is juz a habit, a habit of rushing from one thing to another, afraid of being alone ...

However with my schedule filled, I still managed to squeeze time for activities organised by others by shifting all the other stuff ard and in the end make myself more packed! But I am happy doing so for them.

Coming June, I will start my studies again, will I be able to find time? What is my focus in life, I just feel I am passing day by day without really knowing what I want, my goals, my aim... *Lost in the mist*

~ * One Eye Monster * ~

2010-02-26T08:31:00.002+08:00

Been so buzy since New year, finally gt time to update a little. Finally I get to eat all the goodies ^_^ which i have been munching since CNY.

Day 1 of CNY, I happily put on my Cheong Sum and went to my aunt hse. most exclaimed its nice except for my 大表哥... he kept saying tht I am wearing 肚兜..grr... he warranted a "beating" from me lolx whereas the rest of relatives watched in amusement.

Day 2 of CNY, went to my aunt hse for visit as usual.This yr my nephews were ard when we reached. I had a great time teasing them ...taking their toys n hide ...lolx ..okie I am a bully XD
After the visit, I had 开年饭 at Granny hse, to my horror, lunch was not as fantastic as I expected. But on second thoughts, my granny is wheelchair bound, so it's hard to expect her to whip up a great meal like what she did in the last 20+ yrs of my life. I volunteered to go there earlier to cook next yr, something tht my family shrugged... At nite we went to watch a chn movie which turn out to be quite gd.

Day 3 of CNY, had to visit a VIP with my dad. Prior to that my cousin had already invited us to her hse for potluck. Sighz but luckily we could leave early from the VIP hse and head str8 to my cousin hse for mj and 21pts. sob this is also the day my Sore eye gt worse.

The subsequent days, I had to put on spect to work haiz n till now..NO LENSE till it fully recover which I dunno which donkey day....

The temperature in my office is crazy, it's like working in a freezer. And the weather outside is crazy as well, super hot and humid. At the rate I am gg, sure fall sick... When I lunch out, the sun is blazing.. n I sweat profusely, but when i am back in office...even with 2 jackets, I am shivering..

~ * Ba Chang * ~

2010-02-10T08:09:00.002+08:00

Hmm, been eating quite abit these few days and this will intensify n go on till after New Year. It doesn't help I gt a "super" body fitting Cheong Sum top for CNY. Dunno whether it's my illusion...I feel it getting tighter each day >.<
Been quite conscious of my weight since the horror of gainning 4kg in 2 months. I always tot 我吃不肥, but sob the rate of me eating is faster than my metalbolism rate nowadays. It doesn't help that I hardy exercise except for dance..which some of my frens refer it to as ruedarobic and some jogging now n then.
Been eyeing the Ba Kwa for days, but everytime I get home, it's already after 10plus. Worrying that It would put a ring of fats ard my body..I perished the thought. All the New year goodies smiling at me, waving at me...but I ignored them.
Think I really got a fright after the 4kg episode...when i could not put on one of my jeans... T.T
Anyway come CNY, I will heck care n eat then worry later! I am starting to do so....almost everyday a celebration lunch/dinner~

~ * Hectic Weekend * ~

2010-02-08T09:34:00.004+08:00

It was a hectic weekend for me. It started with a disgreement with a frenz on Friday. That was enough to thrash my mood but nevertheless I turn up at the social night after standing below the place for 5 min deciding whether to go up. But I managed to put on my "best behaviour" n smiled for 2 hr before sinking back into my "moodless" stage. But Friday was really a surprise, with the pathetic number of fren who went down, it was actually nt bad.

On Sat, I managed to put the whole moodless thing behind me. In the noon, I met up with my ex-classmates whom I haf not met for at least 5 years. I was very excited :P, afterall it's 5 years. It was pretty comical that they gave me an "interview" on the 5 yrs tht I "disappeared". It was nice to recapped on the school life back then, bringing back lots of fond memories. They din change much...still the same person they were in school.. and I am glad they are doing quite well :) At first I was quite apprehensive of going.. It was already 5 years and the many what if plagued me....but now I am already looking forward to my next time seeing them. It was a pity I had to leave early to go to my gran place :x

On Sun, I had a buffet lunch with a bunch of salsa frens. It was great company with me non-stop laffing. Afterwhich I accompany a fren queue 2.5h for BA GUA. My 1st time actually queueing for Ba Gua. I was smelling like a walking Bagua after I gt my prized 1kg of Mincemeat Ba gua. It is very good, my dad finished half the pack within a night -.-" to testify it. At night I went New year Grocery shopping with my family ^_^ we bought lots of goodies I hardly eat but well... I tink my siblings do.

After all the shopping I finally gt home at 11 plus where I had to work after bathing T.T Din haf a chance to work for the 2 days. When I finished it was near 1am *yawnz* I think it will be like this for the upcoming week.

~ * Rest * ~

2010-02-03T13:27:00.002+08:00

I am beginning to feel the effect of aging.. Not that I am very old ...but as compared to before, I realised I tired more easily. I used to be able to last a few days without sleeping, but now even with an average of 6h a day, it is not enough.

The last few weeks, I have been spending considerably time at Union sacrificing at least an hour of sleep a day. This week no matter how much I sleep, I still feel tire... sighz.. much as I hate to admit...age is catching up on me :(

3 more days to weekend ^_^ 3 more days to "sleeping marathon"! Hopefully I rest enough juz in time for the CNY celebration !!

~ * New Wardrode * ~

2010-02-01T08:57:00.003+08:00

My new wardrode finally arrived. Spent a whole noon sieving thru my clothes, deciding which can stay ...n which to throw.
It was hard deciding on the ones to throw. Though I dun wear them anymore, these r the clothes which accompanied me thru the days of uni. I have a habit of buying clothes and put it in my wardrode till I remeber them, perhaps 1-2 yrs later. Afterall I go for comfy clothes...nt trendy kind.. so nt afraid it is 过时. Sighz, nevertheless I cleared a big chunk of clothes.. and reorganise the rest nicely.
A friend suggested that I should donate those clothes I cleared out, but I abit paiseh to bring to Salvation army. Some of them are really old... so... nt very nice to give others. Until I decide what to do to them, the clothes shall sit in my living room.
Prior to my clearing, my mum was smart. She already cleared out a batch... even my soft toys...when she see I buzy, she quick clear out and sell to garang guni. By the time I realise my beloval bear nt on my bed...It's already gone. -.-" haiz...

~ * The story of a Mother Bee * ~

2010-01-28T08:20:00.002+08:00

Juz saw this posted in facebook by someone....

"It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped."

It set me deep in tots. Many a times we have to make decisions, decisions that will affect how our future will turn out. I remembered many years back, when I was in a failed relationship, I nearly gave up my 'A' Levels. My mum encouraged me to go for it nevertheless, it was just 6 mths before the exam. If I had given up, what would I be today. I had to admit I was too young and immature to think at tht time. Luckily though I was a bit rebellious, I would always listen to my parents and follow the route they want me to take. Though unhappy at the point when I listened, but I am very thankful in the years to come. Finance may not be my first choice, but it gave me some directions at least.
Perhaps from young, they know I am a 三心二意person. Easily sway by the present.

I am very glad my parents are always there for me....

This morning my mum told me a story of some "fight" with bee yesterday. It seems a mother bee built a nest in my sis cup few days back. Inside there were 2 babies. My brother cruelly washed them away and the mother bee came back looking for them yesterday. It was searching high and low till my mum took out the cup my sis hid. It then realised it's babies were gone.

When I heard it, my heart sank. I feel for the bee... It probably tot it is safer to built a nest indoor. But it chose a wrong spot and lost its babies. Sadness fill my heart, I could only pray for the babies. The mother probably regretted. I asked my mum y nt let the bees have the cup?
It was a silly tot, there is no way we can communicate with it to bring her babies away.

This shows how parents decision is impt for a kid before the kid can think for themselves.

I could not say my bro was in the wrong, he was just being brotherly in returning my sis her fav cup. The bee wasn't in the wrong either...it's juz a wrong choice...

At this point, I can only pray for the baby bees... May their next life be better..

I believe in recarnation, perhaps there is a nxt life perhaps there isn't. But it makes me feel better in a way thinking perhaps ppl can makeup for their 遗憾 in the next life...

~ * Perspective Changed * ~

2010-01-25T11:35:00.002+08:00

I realised it is a choice to be Happy or not.... ending my misery on Friday :) Thanks to a colleague who said something casual during lunch.

So instead of basking in misery and cursing n swearing at the person who landed me in such state, I let go ... n by letting go of the unhapiness n frustration, I feel so much more relieve and happy. Afterall it is just a job :) and by facing it happily, I feel happier coming to work.

Thinking back, I am really abit dumb to be miserable over such things, so instead of enjoying myself, I kept thinking how pathetic my situation is and thinking of millions of ways to get back at tht culprit. The other person is probably celebrating over the fact tht she manage to affect my mood ...lolx.. I wasnt the one in hot soup aniwae ...y should I be bothered by what she does..

As for Haiti, I can only pray for them, being upset wun be able to help them much either... I should count my blessing that I am borned in the part of the world where I dun face many natural disasters but man-made disasters...

Though I dunno what lies ahead but I am ready to face it with smiles...

~ * 心里不好受 * ~

2010-01-19T23:02:00.006+08:00

Seeking a listening ear but everyone seems so buzy with their stuff... sighz..

Called a snr yest, but he seemed preoccupied with his stuff.. so decided to put down the phone instead.

Feel so helpless... but then I have to grow up and help myself instead of seeking help everytime when I am trapped.. cant count on my frens forever to bail me out :(

Been psychoing myself whole day...but the more I think abt it the more I feel unhappy.. how to change my perspective...sighz..

~ * I love my family * ~

2010-01-17T12:22:00.002+08:00

No words can express my graditude for my family....

My bro and sis rushed down from home to "rescue" me as I left my shoes in office and had to get back to get it. Luckily juz 30 min late for my Rueda lesson.

Dad juz got back from Manila on friday. Luckily I got back home before him ... so he saw me in my pyjamas doing leg massage. ^_^ If he knew I had been home so late everyday..I am dead meat haha.. but well ..while he was having his "dinner", he asked abt work.. something he knew I would be very bothered abt especially recently..

Nxt day, he bothered to ask if lunch we eating as he wanna buy some "famous" braise duck home. He heard I gt to go out by 12pm, he rushed home juz as I finished lunch and put the box down for me to get a few slices before gg out.

Was terribly sicked by the time I gt home in the evening, we had dinner at my fav kopitiam. Normally my dad will make noise abt the long queue and bad service. But he agreed to go there when I suggested my fav salad prawn ball. While they were waiting for food, I made a beeline for the doctor. Came back when food arrived. To my surprise, my dad ordered food tht were light but nt forgetting my fav dishes. My bro was still complaining abt how light the food were.

Even today I cancelled all the tuition to "recuperate" at home, my dad still asked abt my cold... and my mum making ginseng root drinks for me..

Feel so blessed... *basking in my blissful family life*.. But the more I feel blessed... the more scare I am..

It's like everytime when I feel very happy ..something would happen.. sighz..

~ * Heart Wrecking * ~

2010-01-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

It is really heart wrecking seeing the pics of victim slashed across the front page of Straits Time . I tried to shut myself out but I cant help but pick up the papers. It doesn't take a vivid description to pull some emotional string.
My heart goes out to the victim's family. It must be painful waiting for news of love ones, heartbreaking having someone so close to you gone suddenly. Future seem bleak. I always felt..when one is gone, it is the people surrounding that will be suffer, they suffer the lost, they suffer the pain. The feeling of being abandoned haunt me once more. It's hard to forget when one leaves suddenly.
I couldn't bear to enjoyed myself, it seems nt right that I am enjoying when ppl r suffering....

May the victims rest in peace... May the survivors picked themselves up and move on with life..

~ * Haiti Quake * ~

2010-01-14T13:30:00.002+08:00

Juz read abt the Haiti Quake in the newspaper. Sighz, another Earthquake but this time round, it is worse than Sze Chuan Earthquake. It hurts to read about schools, hospitals and even paliament hse collapsing. The difference is in Sze chuan Quake, the fault lies with the unscrupulous businessmen who built sub-standard buildings but in Haiti, the country is too poor to build buildings of standard.

It's simply juz nt fair why some have so much and some simply do not have. I belong to the fortunate ones, but it is so sad to see around me there r ppl who dun have even the bare neccessities. Sometimes during the MPS sessions I helped out, there r lots of such cases, unfortune events happened one after another. And there is so little that can be done to help. Sometimes Dad will tell us some of the unfortunate cases, it will often put me in a down mood for days.. so I learn to shut it out hoping by shutting out ..it won't happen.

Everytimes when a major tragedy strike out, I would be so affected, seeing the number of casualties rise.. I would always have the impulse to sign up for some volunteer relief team. But my dad would stop me, coz I really do nt have the skill to do so. And probably I would be more of a hindrance. So I can only donate to Red Cross and hopefully it helped them. But still my heart goes out to the victims of the earthquake.

May the people who die rest in peace and their surviving loves ones be able to recover from grief. May relief pour in soon to alleviate the situation of lack of food, sanitation, healthcare.

~ * Buzy Buzy * ~

2010-01-14T11:40:00.003+08:00

Been very buzy recently. Work is piling up and I hardly have time to breathe. To make things worse, my cough is back. Went to the doctor on Tues nite for cough then medical review on Wed, only dare take a half day MC. Pretty pissed with a colleague who have been non-stop stabbing me..sighz..

Been going to Union these few nites, last time I used to ponder over what a Salsa mate tell me.."I will go down Union if I am stress up", now I understand what he means. Ruedaing is one the few things I looked forward to XD guess I am abit addicted to it now. And this week it is definitely an overdose of Ruedaing.. but it was fun though I was constantly "bullied" by "Da ge" Jeff..

Went to doc review yest, he wasnt quite favourable of my Marathon plan but I am gg ahead, will remeber to take my medication till my condition stabilised. In the meantime I have to take it easy while trainning. I have planned an review in April, hopefully he will give the green light by then.

~ * Reflection/Resolution * ~

2010-01-12T11:01:00.005+08:00

Yest met up with my Salsa frens @ Union, had a little chat during dinner.. One of them asked me something on what I wanna be... turn out I gave contradicting ans.. then she concluded, I dunno what I want ..And coincidently, 2 of them reminded me of my outdoor life when they asked abt trekking..

I guess till today, I dunno what I want and what's my direction in life.... I went home, revisited my old friendster acc... browsed thru my pics then and realised.. I miss myself, I miss my outdoor activities, I miss all the fun I previously had...the numerous back to back camps though I always look "chao-ta". I guess all that changed and I lost all directions.

Not that i don't like my life now, it's just different. From outdoor stuff, it became indoor most of the time. I simply love gg out during lunch...at least i get some sunlight.. but my two colleagues would always take out the umbrella and exclaimed "我走漂白路线". I went Ubin and they will have lots of sunblock... for face too.. I only put on the sunblock when the sun is really scorching..

I still try to engaged myself in some outdoor activities, like Pulau Ubin Cycling...but tht stopped coz the last 2 times I brought my colleagues there, they had bad falls...dun think they will wanna go with me again....and when I went with a gp of old frens, a guy nearly "collapsed" after cycling half the intended track, after tht, no one mentioned Ubin again. In Kluang, we trekked this "mountain" tht looked more like a hill... It was great acheivement for me haha though the guys had to encouraged me and thanks to them I managed to "scale" it. But one thing is still ongoing..Captain Ball haha.. though the last time I had a BIG blue black after falling off the chair >.<. Was thinking of gg for a 10km marathon with pris... I really hope I can :) It will be another challenge for me.... even if I finish last.

So my New year resolution... To be myself again! But what is myself.... I also dunno -.-" So I am back to square one..

~ * 2010 First post * ~

2010-01-10T23:34:00.002+08:00

Finally...gt time to blog :) been buzy after December... some updates...

Captain Ball - Had a last game of yr 2009 with colleagues. >.< Fell off the chair and gt a BIG blue black on my arm. T.T could nt wear any sleeveless for weeks!

Kukup Trip - Went to Kukup with my family and cousins on Christmas day. It had changed considerably over since the last time I visited 13 yrs ago. We had fun playing with "fire work" .. with my cousin and uncle hitting mud skipper with "dragon egg"! A bit cruel.... but well,...it was entertaining... Guess I am no diff from the culprits >.< ..

Malacca Trip - Went Malacca with Pric, kh, William n Kenneth during the dec shutdown. Had fun walking ard n "clubbing" for 2 nights. The food were simply superb!

New Year Day - Went Uncle house for gathering. To my surprise, most of my cousins were there with my baby nephews and niece! And I had my fav ice cream...tis time @ holland V coz the branch @ Clementi was undergoing some renovation after a fire >.<

Well that conclude my Year 2009 and started my 2010.

PF Bday- Celebrated PF bday @ No 5 last friday. Missed my Rueda lesson... but nevertheless I had fun seeing her play the little game Pric prepared for her. Afterall it's the 1st bday of the yr.

Dad Bday- Coincidentally my dad share the same bday as PF :) We celebrated for him on Sat evening after selecting my grad Pic. Had dinner @ Hanabe.. >.<>.< Luckily me n carol decided nt to go Bachata nite tht nite..else..

Hmm...I also dunno what's my new yr resolution...maybe I could come up with some by the next time I blog.. :)

~ * Batam Trip * ~

2009-12-18T08:21:00.003+08:00

Went to Batam over the weekend with my uni buddies and Salsa fren :)

It was a pleasant trip though I was "warned" Batam is a boring place. Though it din have a good start - I suffered from motion sickness and din wanna do anything much, the next 2 days was a blast!

Day 1

We missed the boat thanks to......... lolx but luckily we managed to get on to the next one. So we ended up loitering in Vivo for 1.5h while waiting to board the 6.40pm boat. We decided to practise kiasu-ism this time :) At 5.30pm we were already at the boarding area waiting for the gate to open. The ride to Batam was bumpy... the sea was choppy.. n I suffered from fear and motion sickness. Finally, after what seems eternity, I was finally at Batam! I lied on the bed for a while after checking in before playing majong ^_^ that's when I start to recover haha...

Day 2

After breakfast, we went to Nagoya (hmm) for shopping... We saw A&W and immediately chiong in for a cup of rootbear float n chicken wings!~ At the mall I bought a top tht I was looking for and a pair of Reebok shoe for S$50 >.<>.< but well...it gave us a good laff!

Day3

We went for a city tour package before departing for SG. It started with temples... then go-kart. But it was too dusty and HOT so we decided nt to have a try. We bought kueh lapis and some Polo Raulph Tees.. and had a last go on A&W rootbeer before coming back home. The journey back was much more pleasant with Carol n Kenneth keeping my mind off the sea.

My "achievements" - 5 bags of loots ^_^v

~ * Taiwan Trip * ~

2009-12-11T08:36:00.006+08:00

Hmm time to blog abt my Taiwan Trip from 24 Nov - 29 Nov :) Well better late than never...

24th Nov Tues

Set off early in the morning, took a train with my baby sis n the rest of the family took a cab to the airport with our luggage. Ate breakfast @ Coffee Club.. It kinda sux, but beggars r nt choosers. So excited and scared at the same time, sitting in a plane isn't exactly something I like. Took my motion sickness pill just 30 min before departure :) and it helped! The journey to Taiwan was smooth.

Reached Taipei @ 1.30pm and took a bus from the airport to 国光 (one of the national tour agency) where they direct us to the hotel for 1st nite. We din have high expectation as my Dad had prelude that it is only $100 per nite a room for all 5 of us. But it turn out better! It had 2 double King size bed and a super single bed and a super big tv. After putting down our luggage n stuffs, we head for our lunch! It was already 3pm, I was starving @_@

We walked a few rounds exploring our surroundings and found a beef noodle shop :) The food was superb so much so that I insists on buying the dumplings for supper ^_^ after all it's only 1 night I would be at that location. After lunch we went back hotel to plan our itinerary for the day. We decided to head for Shilin 夜市 for the night before that we shop at the MRT station near us- 台北中站, there were so many shops there!

At Shilin, we were like some country pumpkins, snooping every corner for food! And It was plentiful! haha Saw this interesting store that has this signboard 豪大大鸡排, my bro n dad roared out in laughter XD. We bought alot of food! and ate at the seats outside the whole "foodcourt". Saw these BBQ 鸡心, it was superb! The egg oysters were different from Sg! I prefer our egg oyster keke. After the food we went to the night market for "shopping", It was disappointing though, alot of winter clotheings...

At 11pm, we head back to hotel for zzzzz.

25th Nov Wed

We took a 2~3h bus ride to 日月潭 (Sun Moon Lake), one of the trip highlight. The scenery was breathtaking! We could not checked into our hotel till 2pm and the transport arranged to take us to 九族文化村 would arrived at 1.30pm, so we decided to stick in the hotel for lunch. After ordering, we waited at least 30 min for our food and another 30min for our drink. It was way too slow for our pace, but well we r there to relax! haha The lunch was surprisingly good, it came with starter-preserved pumpkin, salad, soup, and our main course. I had mutton, it was super nice. By now I realised in Taiwan cannot order chicken, it's juz not so good haha.. mutton n beef
is superb choice!

At 九族文化村, we take a cablecar to the top much to my horror! n my dad enjoyed seeing my face turn white, both bro n dad took video n pic to remind me of the ride! >.<>

We took a roller coaster ride in the "village" It was damn good. I kept reminding myself to breathe haha.. My mum freaked out and was giddy for the rest of the night. Just before we left the village, I was pulled by a performer to the middle to dance with them, luckily I resisted n kept asking him to find others.

On our way back to the hotel, we stopped by a small village and bought tea eggs :) n tea goose egg. The goose egg is as big as my knuckles, but doesnt taste as good as chicken egg.

Dinner was back in hotel, a 7 course dinner. The food served is totally diff from what we have in SG. I tried every dish and found it to my liking. I continued "cleaning" the plates even after my parents left the table and went back to the room to rest.

Night activity is quite limited, it is a village there ...shop closes by 10pm... and the only mode of transport we have is walking. We did a night hike further down and found a convenience shop. Bought cup noodles and some tidbits for movie marathon in the hotel.

Oh ya the Hotel room is super extravagant... Jacuzzi bath... 2 king size bed for my siblings and me. haha...

26th Nov Thur

We have a boatride in the noon, so we explored around in the morning. Just nice TW is having some election going on, posters of candidates were everywhere. Some were amusing, 3 of us (bro sis n me) even imitated some of the posture n took the pic juz right beside the posters! After the morning walk, we went back hotel to pack and "bathe" I had a last soak in jacuzzi tub before checking out at 12pm. The boatride was abit terrible for me but my family enjoyed it.

Lunch was at a cafe in their "town". It served us some of the tribal delicacy. Despite my wobbly state, I enjoyed the food.

We missed the bus ride back to Taipei coz of miscommunication with the agency, luckily they send us a van to take us to the next boarding pt. Was back in Taipei at 5pm. The sky was dark by then. We settled down in the Just Sleep hotel that was to become our "home" for the next 3 nights.

It is located in Xi men Ding. It was one of the criteria I set for the hotel which my dad manage to get the agency to book for us. It is a no fringe hotel where it just provide the very basic stuff... there's no laundry svc -.- But the room was relatively comfortable, n it was a very innovative use of space.

Dinner was at Ximending- a hawker which i managed to find in the corner. My dad was initially aiming some of the cafes ard but I insisted on finding my 大排档. The food was nice at a super nice and was super cheap. After filling our tummy, we walked ard and explored. Nothing was bought and we went back to hotel at 10.30pm. Too tired after a whole day event.

Oh Ya...I found the bubble tea shop tht was super good! and I had at least a cup ea night :)

27th Nov Fri

We went Taipei 101 in the morning. The elevator girl is beautiful..but well her makeup is thick as well. I was quite amused with the system they have there. In Shanghai 珍珠 tower, they use guide to bring the tourist around. In Taipei 101 they give a walkie talkie alike gadget, and by pressing the number of the tower of each section, it will give u a vocal description of the section just like a guide.

Just nice they have a coral exhibition there, it is amazing how they make corals into vase and apparels. We left the tower after 2hrs and shop in new york new york. They have a super big Dasio there!

Lunch was in the foodcourt below the shopping mall. I had this hotplate udon noodle with mutton and a big whole sotong. It was really value for money, the whole set cost just S$7 and it taste good, can beat alot of hotplate stalls in SG.

Went Wufenpu for shopping. It was a shopping paradise except that they had winter clothing for display. >.<>

We went back to hotel in the evening to prepare for dinner with my parent friend. They brought their daughter and her dorm mate along. Dinner was a steamboat buffet at 天外天, I had alot of bamboo clams oyster n...duck blood :)

We used a machine to wash n dry our clothes at night, those tht need coin...

28th Nov Sat

We took a train (火车) to shuangxi with the same uncle and auntie. They would bring us ard for the day. We stood 1h40min in the train >.<>

We had a 10-course lunch at a "farm", with this starter of herb that look like meesua at first look and turn "soapy" after we stir it. It was a bit hard stomaching it. The rest of the dishes were good esp unagi glutinous rice...though I dun take unagi.

After lunch, we were still unable to secure a ride ard the village. So Uncle decided to take us to another place call 九份. It was on a cliff overlooking the sea. I begin shivering the moment I stepped off the bus and went immediately into a shop to get a pair of glove. Uncle told us the place became popular after a movie. We saw alot of young dating couples, and lots of tourists like us. The scenery is even better than Sun moon Lake. In the alleys were food stalls, like our Pasar Malam. I was happily buying n eating along the way.

Dinner was at Keelung where I saw a fraction of a super thick tentacle. Couldnt help but I insisted on buying it. Dinner was at one of the 大排档. We had this bamboo shoots with mayo.. It is one of the thing tht's nt found in SG as well as goose intestine. It sound gross but it is good. Uncle also ordered this BIG eyes of fish... I never touched the dish, it was just too scary with the big eyeball staring bat us.

We took a train back to Taipei city. This time round we haf seats :). We did night shopping at Ximending, bought some shoes and clothes and headed back to our hotel for zzz ard 11pm.

29th Nov Sun

Early morn we pack our stuff...got to check out by 12pm. We went out to Ximending for ah zhong mian xian and last min shopping.. It was with a heavy heart as I cant bear to leave Taipei :) I love the food there and the people. They are so much more polite. Even in MRT, they would give up seats to elderly or those with young kids. In SG it is so diff.... ppl pretend to slp etc.. Ppl in taiwan actually queue to go into the MRT, in SG ...ppl dun even bother to wait for passenger to alight first before chionging in.

The flight back to SG was a horror ride for me... I forgot to take the motion sickness pill and ended up feeling uneasy during the ride. It doesnt help that there was a spoilt brat infron t of me screaming every 5 ~10min.

But nevertheless I enjoyed the trip and would very much love to go back there once more.

~* A post after 6 mths *~

2009-12-04T09:25:00.003+08:00

Read some of my older post in another blog, it's my own healing blog that's why it's private only!

I am glad I have recovered pretty well in the past 1 year, picking up the pieces in my life, gainning a new "hobby" and settling down well in my new department.

Towards the end of the year, ppl tend to look back in the past 1 year what they have acheived. I would say for me, I acheived alot. I got into numerous troubles as usual, but I could crawl out of them by myself most of the time which was a great improvement from the past where I have to depend on others to bail me out.

That day, an old friend added me in facebook, I have forgotten her. But nevertheless when I saw she is a fren of 2 of my frens, I added her, and she msg me immediately! It turned out we were from the same JC and CCA and Uni. We shared abit of our life now and I am glad she is enjoying her job as a tour manager. It's something different from what most of us chose...a 8 to 6 desk job, something I hate in the past but well...I am in it too. And reality set in when she mention it was ard 8 yrs since we left JC... T.T I am nt tht young animore... sighz

In facebook a uni fren uploaded a pic of me in Uni yr 1. I look so much younger back then -.- It brought back lots of memories... memories on how we gt thru our lessons and went shopping after that. Amongst those, I particularly remember I use to go Orchard every wednesday after my Maths lecture. It will always be the 5 of us taking cab to Orchard for makan session~ but sad to say I nv keep in contact with any of the other 4.

I realised thoughout the years, it's easy for me to make friends, but hard for me to keep them. It doesn't help that I can't remeber names well. But I am very happy that some would still remeber me.... :) This blog used to be frequented by my friends, but due to my lack of discipline to update regularly, I guess they don't visit here animore.

My nxt blog will probably be abt my Taiwan Trip, I would like to leave a post here abt it, in years to come I can reminisce abt the trip.

~ * One Week since I post * ~

2009-06-30T21:53:00.002+08:00

Been buzy for the past 1 week >.< Frens came from sarawak, so went dinner with them on 2 days :) Let's see what I did for the week....

Monday: work work work...tuition tuition tuition

Tuesday: Lin came SG !!! Took them to ECP for dinner.. then city sight-seeing, then back to hotel.

Wednesday: Went Marina Sq with them, dinner @ Lerk Thai... Got 2 nice bag from one of my fav shop ..juz nice Sale keke..

Thursday: Lin they all went back le ^_^v Went Union Sq with my colleagues n some classmates. Grr, finally lost my cool when my colleagues were late XD, somemore i rush down from Tuition XD, actually by then I abit no mood le.. but it turn out well aniwae.

Fri: Dance Lesson followed by more Union Square! I was dance terribly on friday T.T but heck.. I wasn't expected to dance well aniwae..

Sat: Marathon Day! Tuition then met PF they all shopping @ Mango Sale then back in Hougang for lunch with my family. I finally bought a dress that is long enough for me and a white top which PF strongly discouraged me to buy, but i <3 it. Oh ya and a super bright green top keke. Some of the pieces I tried are nice, but no occasion to wear.. there was this black sexy top tht both pf n pris bought..I oso liked it but really no occasion.. haha I cannot imagine wearing like tht go out to chill.. it kinda give ppl wrong impression but it suits Pris n PF kind of their style.

Sun: Went KTV with Pris they all in the evening. Had a fun time time singing my lungs out.. opps actually I juz wanted to go there sit n clap. Dinner was good though.. the sotongs were superb!

That conclude last week. This week is monthend close.. been buzy since yest,... I need a break!

~ * Monday Blue * ~

2009-06-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

Had a tiring day today. It's Monday plus last nite slept late. The coffee my colleague passed to me n pf this morn came handy, haha thx to their email marathon on last friday :)

Backup most of my data in office finally, now I feel so much safer, the lappy abit sotsot. Started migrating my msn today >.<> sound like some kids playing irc..opps that's me in the past XD)..nowadays I feel ps giving my old msn out >.<

Hopefully I can successfully migrate all my frens :) Now the list in my new msn look pathetic haiz. Found some old fren though, they got lost in my buddylist till I message them ask them whu they r, then realised I have nt spoken to them for years >.<

My computer was threatening to breakdown juz now...refuse to boot up sianz.. after coaxing it for near 30 min, it finally boot up T.T sianz..

Got lots n lots of DVD waiting for me >.< Today colleague pass me somemore.. too many DVD too little time.. Gif me 48 h a day!!!!

~ * Father Day * ~

2009-06-22T00:51:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Father day juz now @ Vienna. The food is good :) At least Dad enjoyed it as well as my mum, bro n sis. Walked ard Challenger juz now, finally gt my portable hard disk n card reader.

I finally squeeze some time in the noon to buy some ingredient for my cake-making hobby. Had a fun time browsing the shelves of NTUC for the stuff ^_^ gd thing I am familiar with AMK Ntuc. After tht stop at Poh Kim to pick out Part 3 of my F4 show. Juz nice I spotted a sequel of a serial I used to love watching - Stolen Heart 2. It's a pretty gd show abt a ger with some psychological problem tht causes her to steal.

After dinner, I went popular to pick up 2 more cake/muffin books while my sibling trying to figure out what CD to buy for Dad. Finally we all agreed on Air supply for him.. n fei yu qing n liu wen zheng for mum.

Made lemon yogurt cake in the night. It was ok except I added too little sugar n the lemon was too sour.. It was funny seeing my bro eat n his face all cringe together. My sis was saying it really "whet" up appetize and suggest if my bro is tire during his camp duties, he can take 1 bite and stay awake thru out the day XD.

Haha, nvm lah at least the cake is soft n fluffy thx to the new cake mixer machine I bought on sat nite :). It's a gd investment, last time too lazy to buy, when my mum heard abt me wanting to buy but no time, she said dad could drive me there haha.. so juz before dinner we headed to AMK courts to get the machine.

Wonder what I will do nxt :) will flipped my new recipe book n check out one by one :) My sis is looking forward to me baking a birthday cake for him next month. Hope I dun disappoint her.

This week is gonna be a hectic week for me XD My frens is finally coming to Singapore. Keke, well its suppose to be me gg Sarawak since 2 years back, now it become they come visit me. Gonna spend my evenings showing them ard. Come to think of it, I promised to go Aust to visit SY, Canada to visit Luan a few years back. Guess I lacked the courage to fly there, but I will some day when I get too bored.

It's 1.06 am in the morning, and I am still blogging -.-" I am ready to be a panda tomolo XD

~ * Weekends * ~

2009-06-20T09:36:00.002+08:00

Whew... the weekend is here :)

Had captain ball with my colleagues on thursday. It was fun!! though I din run much... The game was in risk of being cancelled as more and more ppl backout, but luckily we managed to start with 10. After the game, we went to Chomp Chomp for dinner :) Almost ended up @ subway, but heng I managed to divert them to Chomp Chomp- Nt tht it's near my hse but the food there is irresistable! The stingray and sotong is superb! The hokkien mee and carrot cake is sumptous .. Opps.. I am drooling while typing this..

After dinner went home. Did called my baby sis if she wanted supper, but she sounded rather down. Haiz, luckily whenI went home, they were glued to Jurassic Park 1. Guess the TV help cheered them up instead.

Yest was a super buzy day. Tot tht my boss go on leave, I can slack a little :x but thts nt the case. I ended up more buzy than ever! We walked out for lunch since PF wanted mangos. I finally had yong tau hu, keke a simple yet fulfilling lunch :) It's good! Pris had a lunch tht looks more like breakfast, but her bao reminded me the giant bao I had in Malaysia haha..

Had Salsa lesson in the evening, the lesson was ok, made a few blunders. Went Union Sq with my classmates later. Guess I am getting used to going alone without the two girls. Perhaps it's too demanding on my side haiz.. sometimes taking a step back will be happier. I admitted i was alittle emo at first but well, it wasnt as bad as I tot. I gt tok to some classmates, there is always one of my demons ard, the most impt thing - I have a chair :)

Enuff of updates, got to go arrange my tuition. Argh I dun even know if there is tuition today XD

~ * 18 Jun * ~

2009-06-18T08:01:00.002+08:00

Today is a day I hate the most. Juz recalled the last 3 father days, we din celebrate. No wonder when I said I wanna celebrate this year, my dad was abit taken aback. At first I tot maybe he paiseh or something, but now I know why, he has nt forgotten tht day - the day we planned to celebrate father day with him n grandpa together for the 1st time and my grandpa chose to leave. 4 years down the road, none of us has forgotten this day even my dad, the strongest in my family.

I din sleep well the whole nite, I was waiting for someone to appear in my dream, to tell me he is ok. But he din come. My mum console me saying perhaps he has already recarnated, but is it possible? I promised nt to cry today, but I did in the morning. On my way to work, my dad ask me to remeber him in my heart, let bygone be bygone. It's easier said than done. Even if I wanna move on, things will still come back to me and remind me. But I am determined to move on, so today I will still go for all the stuff I had planned to go.

Yest I went Union Sq with zh n kh. Dunno y I agreed to go, but partly coz I wanna help Zh, partly coz i wanna go and the most is coz I wanna move on. I remembered I used to go out with a bunch of frens even if it means I am the only gerz. Dunno when and why I suddenly stop doing tht. But well, it turn out pretty well last nite. One of our classmate turned up and crapped the whole nite.

Went home ard 11 plus, gt woke up by sms at 12.30am and 1.30am >.< and subsequently almost every 1-2 hr I woke up once and go back to sleep. Maybe tht's y he couldn't come to me in my dreams. Perhaps tonite he will..

~ * Sick * ~

2009-06-16T21:55:00.002+08:00

Woke up with a terrible tummy ache.. which soon develop to cramp that came in intervals >.<>.<

Decided to go doc.. Called a cab from office and came a Maxi cab..those big kind.. abit shocked, Pric, my colleague, was stunned when she saw the cab. The ride was bumpy adding to the queasy feeling in my tummy.

In the clinic all wearing mask, feel like asking for 1 too >.< *stressed* doc concluded I had mild gastric flu and prescibed 4 bags of medications which need to be take approximated 0.5hr from each other. The best part is that it all caused drowsiness, which made me slept the entire noon.

Managed to upload the photos we took in Ubin, >.< I look terrible in them, but well.. the rest look terrific. :) Guess I wasn't feeling in great form tht day haha. Opps a terrible excuse for looking terrible in photos :)

Heard this nice song from Queen of no marriage:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmlEBZ2BVsg

~* Ubin Trip *~

2009-06-15T10:09:00.002+08:00

Went to Ubin yesterday, had a fun time there with a few colleagues. Came back with bruises as usual.

The day started off with meeting at 9am. A little glitch there, one of colleague off both her phone >.<, luckily it is up to the other car to contact her. So early morn we had a brief “discussion” on backup should she fail to be contacted keke before I dashed out to meet the rest. Can’t believe I was the first to reach the bus stop, I tot its suppose to be the guys waiting for the gers?? But well, no one really take me as a ger >.<>.<>.< luckily this time round there r no one ard us. Haha, it was funny thou..Opps sorry shouldnt laff at her “shi tai” sight.

After this we cycled back to town. By then I am already drained of energy, my leg was wobbly. But I managed to cycle back with JS keep telling us to be careful. Guess it is his nature to warn everyone to be careful. At town, I was so bushed that I could juz fall asleep sitting there. KH manage to open his durian and share the spoil with everyone. I was too tire to eat, however all those who tried said it was super good.

Guess everyone had fun J Thanks to all who turned up-Pric (Drama of the day), PF and KZ, QH (“Culprit”), KH, ZH,JS.

~* A post that came 2 years later *~

2009-06-13T14:27:00.002+08:00

It has been 2 years since i last written in this blog. Perhaps only when I feel down or when it's near 18 June I will start writing again.

But today I have alot of mixed feeling. I was mentioning to some colleagues that I could complete my 2.4km run in approximately 10 min in the year one of my PE teacher helped trained my stamina. They were quite shocked. I cant recall clearly so I tried to find my sec report book to try verified what I recalled. But instead of finding the report book, I found a box that contains my secondary school life memory - A phase in my life that I enjoyed the most but forgotten a lot abt it. What remains in my memory were my best frens but not the rest.

My first found is an autograph book in sec 4. Inside there were a few autographs from a few sec school frens that i have already forgotten that i knew them. I read the words they wrote, almost every message include stay happy. I must have been a very cheerful person in their memory. But I guess they would feel very disappointed with me coz I din stay as cheerful as then. Every smile I made now isnt really me, I just smile for the sake of smiling , for the sake of nt having my family to worry abt me. I have already forgotten happy long ago when I left secondary school, when I faced betrayal from an idiot, when I lost someone I loved dearly in a way i would nv imagined.

Sorry frens, I din stayed as happy as you all hope me to be. I was very touched when i picked this christmas card sent 6 years ago in 2003. It was a classmate who wrote to keep in contact with me 3 years after we left school. She left her contact number and best wishes for me. I din noe why I nv contacted her back then, but I decided to try my luck. She picked up the call, and we had a long awaited conversation. It was awkward at first, but she was glad to hear from me.

I guessed I shutted everyone out of my life after JC. I had a happy uni life, my 1st year was a riot with my OG group, my SRC ppl. But I remebered they commented before, why I always looked sad. I guess that's why I started pretending smiling and happy. In my 2nd year, life was a bit perfect, I hung out with more OG group and had my regular group of frens from SRC.
It was then the world collapsed on me. I din even bothered to smile or laugh animore. I disappeared for almost half a year before my best fren pulled me out again. She brought me back to my social life, but I could nv really go back to it but I did with my nature, it was easy to fit back in. But within me, it was the same, no happiness feeling @ all.. juz gg thru all the activities. I started smiling to tell ppl I am back.

She brought me back to what i enjoyed the most, camp. Being camp instructor...
I felt the most at ease during camps because it is a time i can throw away all my tots, juz be a completely different person. I love organising activities becoz thats when I can see my frens enjoyed themselves. Dun be mistaken, i enjoyed myself too, but I just could not feel happy. Many a times, I acted surprised, I acted happy, but deep down i know it is a remote chance i could be.

I started playing maplestory to escape from reality. In the virtual world I can pretend easily to be happy. I played day and night feeling numb. I admitted i started playing the game coz my best fren is in it. But it provided me some things to do so that i can stop thinking.

The fear of being abandoned will always be there becoz it will always be a question mark on why? I could nv find the answer. It has already been 4 years. Every year when its near 18 June, I feel more and more emotional and ridiculous.

This year it is a very special year. 18 June seems to be such a good day that everyone organised some thing on that day. The first was my boss selecting it to be some good day to implement some things. The second was a colleague that chose it to be her only day free for us to go KTV. I made a big fuss abt it which i do feel apologetic. Luckily another colleague woke me up abit telling me when i feel eveything is very bad, take a break, tok to someone, things may nt be as bad as it seems. I talked to my best fren, she asked me, it has been 4 years, its so long ago... isnt it time to let go?

Another colleague suggested captain ball on tht day. And my best fren ask me to go for facial on that day as well. I decided to juz put my name down to participate. It seems i cannot go on forever avoiding this date. It seems fate want me to snapped out of it.

Seeing my old sec stuff, reading thru the wishes makes me wanna be the person who I was years ago. I can nv know the reason why and that is a fact. I wanna feel happy once more.

Found a book my dad gave me years ago, Positive thinking,.. Inside are full of wonderful phrases to encourage ppl amonst it is this phrase by Napoleon Bonaparte:

The only conquests which are permanent and leave no regrets, are our conquests over ourselves.

I hope someday I will be able to conquest myself and let the rest see the real me that my sec fren haf seen as well my best frens who stayed by my side eveytime i go "kee siao" and leave the scene and be back months later.

= ~ Deeply upset ~ =

2007-05-15T15:45:00.000+08:00

Near 2 years since the thing haf past... 2 years since the day tht change my life.. The guilt still remain.. the words still linger on. Today some one use similar words on me, nvm tht the person is simply finding a revenue to venge his anger after he done something wrong... but he used the same words... the same words my auntie used on me 2 yr back that keep replaying in my mind now n then.
Many a times i think.. what if i nv go out tht day... what if tht day i choose to abandon my responsibility n stayed at home.. similar to what my fren did, i conveniently blamed my younger bro.. but in my heart i noe it was my fault tht i choose to leave tht day. Nothing can soothe the pain at all.. i choose to mask it by refusing to take my medication.. but now i continue with it ...the pain came back.. the agony with it.
Tht day i went my gran bday party, I tried to make it up to all. But the moment I see my granny teary eyes.. tears well up too... I cant cry.. I muz keep smiling .. to all .. My granny say.. how i hope ur grandpa is here too.. how i wish he took me together with him... then i wun feel the pain tht linger long after he's gone..

~ = Shock SHock Shock = ~

2007-04-18T14:22:00.000+08:00

ok.. a few shocks when i wake up today -.-" WEAK heart woh.. l0l

Shock No 1: Been "disturbed" by "someone" when i sleep at nite ...now i have so clues that it might be my grandfather whu's trying to tell me something.. but what it is tht he wanna tell me?

SHock No2: Well not really much a shock though, my 2 fren got attached thx to Ms Jasmine ^^

ShOck No3: Eeik.. my Pri/sec skool classmate got married .. -.-" n my snr oreadi got a baby ger n one of my buddy getting married soon...

Feel so old suddenly .. Suddenly ppl ard me getting attached .. married... kids... =.= n I am still a kid ^^ Ok for all the shock.. back to books..

= * ~ Scary tots ~ * =

2007-03-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

Long time nv update tis blog... been thinking of revamping n relaunch but now no time XD wait till i relaunch.. -.- probably after june.
Been thinking alot since yest, over the past few mth i let go of some things n crawling back to reality.. Been hiding in maple for the past 1 yr plus. I wun say it is a waste of time, i observe quite a bit of human nature, had my taste of been betrayed/backstabbed.. at the same time seeing ppl backstab others, framing others for their selfish gain. What amaze me is despite doing all tis, they can still sleep at nite.. doesn't their conscious prick them?
But as a matter of fact, all these are behind screen. U nv noe what the other party really is, words are juz words.. Recently dun haf the tendency to log in my game acc, ended up everyday on msn chat or play msn game. But yet yest something "force" me online, set me thinking of somethings. Yest incident show me ugly side of human nature once more, the hacking of an acc. The 3rd user accuse 2nd user of hacking the acc when he scrolled some godly item. Owner stand neutral. I am fren of 2nd user, n precisely i knew he nt home whole day, i can testify to him not hacking the acc which he haf no idea of the "godly items" at all. I did some questioning, find out some timing etc. Everything dun match. It became a simple case that ended with me informing the owner he can report police n what will follow afterward. Miraculously some of the items was return by the "hacker". And the hacker use my fren deleted maple character to do the sale n etc... n since my fren din do it .. two theory i can derive at..both equally scary to me...
Yet what ever the truth is they drag the 3rd innocent party whu nv log in the acc for 3 ~ 4 wk n accuse him n at the end scare of wat i say n return the item. -.-" The 3rd user even went to the extent of "spoiling" my fren name. Imagine his shock he went home after getting my bday prezzie , log in maple see see look look.. ppl pm him n accuse him of hacking.. n mind u ..i share acc with tis fren n our combine asset is definitely what is more than the items which they claim is worth 100+m . Whoever did the hacking wanted scapegoat... n my fren whu been taking care of the owner acc for him became the scapegoat. Sad case..
Now I dun even have the incentive log in to the scary place which i find now worse than reality. At least in the real world u see body language, but in virtual world u dun. Now i face a dilema, to go back to the game to build back what i left or to remain as i am ..building my life back... >.< I would like to choose my life back, haiz most rational choice, but also a selfish one..so in the end i am selfish too...

~ = ECR = ~

2006-06-15T10:22:00.000+08:00

Just registered for my ecr keke ... Next semester onli gg for 2 days of lesson per week.... -.-"" hope can catch some frenz in same class..after all most grad this yr le :)
Din do much this wk.. onli maple 2pm - 2am then slp -.-"" no life haha.. muz find more things to do ... wait tupid Jin come back train his slot then I freed from 6pm wahahaha...juz haf fix slot from 2-6pm.
Sat and Sun coming..how i gonna survive it.. I dunno.. -.- Take a step at a time bah...

~ = Update = ~

2006-06-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

Din update for a few days...shall do it be4 i forgot things again.... Went Malaysia two days ago with dol n ken.. first time spending so little there.. onli change $50 .. juz wanted go walk ard refresh myself..the day be4 gg tupid jin tell me what he got rob recently there.. -.-"""
keke but heng no robbers :) icy bite bite whuever dare to rob.. keke ..had some dian sum for lch..not that nice but the hor fun is gd :P keke bought alot of cute cute cups to replace those my maid broke -.- next time frenz come i can use that to serve drinks keke ... ke lian de ken haf to help me carry..or else the cups can nv survive back to Singapore. Got two 2 tops.. 1 white 1 black :X thats all for the shopping list -.- haha cannot think of anithing i need... Saw a cute hamtaro holding strawberry.. but...-.- dol... :X haha i keep seeing my son ard PIKACHU!!! haha and a cute moo moo ... but i alot of soft toy le.. dinner was horrible..dun wanna elaborate much :X
Reach back Sg with Rm15..keke enuff for the next rd lch keke.. realise the custom at malaysia side abit messy..almost went to sg side without clearing the malaysia custom.. luckily dol alert.. or else.. jas become illegal immigrant..haiz ..nice trip but exhausted :X din regret gg :)

~ = Sleepless Night = ~

2006-06-05T03:14:00.000+08:00

SUppose to start off a Happy Day... badminton morn.. evening dol celebration..end up ... too tire for badminton..so went there sit and stare.. evening was ok.. the dinner quite nice.. but abit tire despite resting whole noon...
Went home after the dinner.. no movie.. log on my lappie to test the laptop cooler.. and oso to mega Happy Birthday to dol... end up... got an idiot megaing say Mb3 ksing.. wtf.. we go there ...the Mb3 leader settle the ksing thing..me and dol handle the megaing thing.. 1st time i ever settle these kind of issue and got driven by the IDIOT out of chatbox when dol invited him and me in..super rude.. and i pursue on the matter with some other enraged members.... guess what.. my mb3 leader without finding out the facts.. say i oso in the wrong :( .. so much for the trust (if not trust for a fellow guild member at the very least i deserve some kind of trust as a frenz..)... and again this person is one of the first few i know from maple.. *disappointed* I nv gonna help MB3 again..and i dun need ppl whu dun trust me..feel so betrayed by my own leader.. dunno why tots of quiting pop out again... helping them so many times and this is what i got in return...distrust... :(
Then when i abt to cheer up..my brother come down.. shirt and pants drench in blood stain.. he fell and hit his chin .. argh.. need stitches.. took him to the 24h clinic.. 20min of waiting.. the doc tell us its better to go hospital coz its on the face... wtf.. then we went tan tock seng.. and was struck there 1h -2 h... then my bro got his treatment .. if in the first place the clinic cant help they could haf told us at the counter.. taking a look at his wound doesnt take 3min.. haiz and whats more it is definitely much cheaper to go hospital than to the clinic. Should haf gone hospital str8....luckily my brother is ok...or else...

Sad..disappointed day....

~ = Went thru a silly ks war = ~

2006-06-03T08:17:00.000+08:00

Keke juz finish a silly ks war -.- and i ended up as a 47 yr old ah pek..thx to jin F5 !!! and the other party..some ah long and bookie o.0 well nuthing much to do so may as well kill the night... hmm.. i am the nice "jin" whereas the real jin is using another char haha see i beautify his char :)
Later gg to breakfast then visit my granny :) follow by morn call to 3 idiots :X haha enjoy teasing a "kid" .. Jasmine theory: Kids must sleep more or else cannot grow up/grow taller ..he flipping the whole nite i teasing him .. -.- i am bad :X hope i can make it back in time to mega for son..he lvl 130 today !!! SON JIAYOU!~~~~
Dol draft an email for me to UOL, hopefully later i can send it out to UOL in time for a reply thx dol...

-.- going out le..tio scolding for not slping -.- but i look more awake than anione in the house
-.-"" later i gonna nap in the car haha..

~ = Happier Update = ~

2006-05-31T12:57:00.000+08:00

Seem that my weekend updates are a little too depressing .. Now i in my skool library .. suppose to study :x Shall haf a quick blog, never quite find the time to blog at home.
So what haf I been doing for my weekend, let me see.. sat i went out shopping despite seeing all the depressing stuff, my frenz complained I am in daze half of the time.. the other half i am on the phone haiz. 30min after i left my house, receive phonecall abt ks -.-"" but well at least i got something, keke went kinokuniya and saw 2 new issues of full metal ..grr..y din i see it everytime i go into comic connection! Finally finish reading it yest.. :x I oso got myself a nice top which my sis think its too big for me -.- got ppl wear tight fit top to play badminton de meh..
Went home suppose to PQ/hunt but end up guarding msg map till 6am o.0
Sun morn receive a fone call from dol.. eeik i LATE .. heng she say meet 1h later. Took a cab down to mac..to realise...i brought my notes but i din bring the exam qn.. end up reading my comic..haiz.. while she buzy mugging for her last paper.. finally reach 2pm.. then realise one of the badminto kaki sick and the other one got meeting -.- so 2 of us go to the court..with no net..and met a few "overfriendly" uncles.. and their badminton skill is "godly"... dun dare show our noob skill..so decided to abandon the court and head back to mac..dol drove me home to get my exam qn.. "my leg..almost gone :x" luckily i in daze... haha ..after that we continue studying..but couldnt concentrate much ..i finish 1 qn will juz lie on the table...then after awhile try another qn..dun even noe what i doing.. at 6 plus.. we went home..
Receive a surprise at nite..one of my ms buddy whom i tot "abandon" me as well pm me.. :) really nice to hear from her..which further tell me..that i am the one whu abandon the world and not the other way round.. for that i will work even harder to find myself back :) thx ..u may not noe whu u r .,.but i really thank u alot really... that night i slept extremely well...i slept a healthy 6hr ..no dream though.. but still it was sleeping ...
On mon..whole day i at home ..din do much ..log in 1 char play then log in another..and another.. been hopping char so much..my frenz dunno where to find me..even the person using my char haha.. but frankly speaking..i cant recall what i did on mon.. nowadays my memory is failing me although i do feel much better... haiz.. been on the fone alot.. but realise i always need 5s to recap what i wanna say... or 1 moment i will be taking something..next moment i dunno what's the thing i am suppose to to do or holding... things in the past is engraved in me..but yet things in the present ..i am not clear ... contradicting... luckily jin reminded me something yest..or else i will really forget -.- so guys if i promise to do something.. pls remind me hor.. but some promises i will nv forget.. :)
Last nite suppose to go PQ after helping jin to hb his priest..haiz..the moment i log out jin char ..got hijacked to help in the ks wwar of an idiot lvl 61 sin..which i dun even bother take down his nick..dumb.. -.- but braves pass me an ester shield which make it abit worth .. but i din tok to my buddies much yest sobsob... normally at 12am = chitchat... but when the thingy finally end at 1am..went to "fill slot" at msg map -.- and at 2am i come back iceyzz...all log out le haiz..

Son muz take care k...mama try get hold another shield ...been getting a few frenz to help hunt le :) sry son..i cant help u hunt myself ..abit buzy.. if by after exam they still haben get..i go camp there :) Thx guys whu haf been passing me stuff..will make a list of it..after exam i pay back 10 times :)

~ = A Prayer for the Survivors = ~

2006-05-28T10:29:00.000+08:00

Death toll haf climb to 3000 :( and Andi haf not sms us back.. how is she? haiz.. Din on tv to look at channelnewsasia :( judging fro past experience i will be crying so may as well dun see.. but this time round..i wun juz sit ard and cry.. if oppuntinity arise ..i would grab it and help in the rescue work.. shall ask my dad look out for me.. wishful thinking? maybe...
Saw that many r displaced...alot more trapped .. may these ppl be rescue soon.. its 1 day..the chances are still high ... *pray for them* those whu r gone..r gone... but those remaining... haiz.. what do they haf to face .. home gone? loved ones gone... Pray for these survivors coz they haf to face much more.. they r the ones left to fight against the fate..
ANdi..... r u alright? :(

~ = A Prayer for the Victims = ~

2006-05-27T13:11:00.000+08:00

Was trying to slp..when my dad walk into my room and tell me, YOGYAKARTA haf been hit by earthquake. A place where my both maids come from.... and it brought to my mind that yest my maid wanted to call her mum out of the blue.. premonition??
6.2 magnitude is rather deadly esp to densely populated area and to make matters worse..hospital buildings collapse ..all the helpless patients...their survival rate... :( ... whereas most of us are safe in other part of the world..ppl are strugging to survive there..this is onli the first wave to hit.. and my previous maid (my frenz my sister my tv buddy) fate is still unknown.. we sms her.. but she live so near the epicentre of the quake.. I guess my maid oreadi verify her loved ones are safe.. but andi... haiz.. for now we can onli wait..see the death rate rising.. from 50 to 161 to 200.... and still rising.. may the souls of the victims seek eternal peace ..
My frenz..pls offer a min of prayers to the victim of this quake.. We may not know them.. but its still life..

It;s alarming to see so many natural disaster happening.. the Tsunami.. the one that torn ppl heart to juz think of it.. y is it always the rural area ppl to suffer.. all the natural disaster that happen.. Is it man-made? We kill the environment slowly.. and now ..it "protest" and yet the ones to suffer are the simple folks.. ..

~ = Ludi = ~

2006-05-26T01:52:00.000+08:00

After waiting for a few mths..ludi is out..juz finish the pq..so tiring haha..Never got to update blog ..shall haf a quick one..keke falling aslp le..
Today went back school study again despite sleeping a mere 3h..realise..i wasnt as tire or to be exact mentally i am awake but body tire.. I reckon i use to it le bah.. now i noe y everyday i wake up like i nv slp at all haiz.. Started on my MA..definitely easier than FR ..at the beri least i dun need 150% concentration..
Din really touch my iceyzz these few days..dunno y actually felt happier using my baby cleric chitchat. Anyway wun be using it as well tml so.. haha .. frnz whu wanna find me pm iceyzmage bah :)
Today after skool, went to get my cousin present. Wanted to get gift vouchors, but decided against it. Walk around more than 2 rounds thinking what she need... then saw this super nice bag from Esprit. Haha long time since i last walk in, and today is a gd time :x Singapore Sale !! so cheap :X muz save $$ go shopping after exam..gonna go on shopping spree if i cant go aust :P
After getting teh gift went on to add a necklace to go with it.. after than too tire to take bus so was in cab half awake .. think i oreadi master the art of slping with my eyes open...walking ard half daze haha ..
Today in skool was crapping to dol..half the time i dunno what i talking... haha onli noe today the "room" keep irritating her..haha normally no problem de..today dunno y haha.. and laughing is contagious.. not onli yawning :P hopefully tml the "room" will be nicer !
Toking abt oversleeping...SON all ur fault..now i haf the habit of oversleeping..grr... not as serious as urs though .. mine the most 1 h :x
hao le all gd nitezzz i go zz le/.. haf a feeling my entry dun make much sense either..but heck care le haha

~ = Blogging = ~

2006-05-23T10:12:00.000+08:00

Went skool yest to study.. couldnt concentrate.. too tire.. i was lieing on the table 70% of the time :( ... remaining 30% solving some acc qn.. haiz.. now 10plus le ..i still on the sofa..dunno whether should go or not..
*tired* think i can go on slping the whole day today.. yest after come home..I chatted with some frenz in msn till they offline then i went into maple.. tot gg in can cheer me up abit.. i was right.. went in cheer up for 5 min...then ... -.-""""" nevertheless survived for another hour in there begging for a lost cause... end up sad.. exhausted... come out of maple ... continue chat with another msn frenz..felt bad coz the day be4 was beri tire..so i onli manage to say hi and bye..
But the chat was quite interesting :) abt game.. he playing a game called conqueronline..went to check out the website abit .. realise some of the char quite similiar to maple de char.. it look familiar dunno which of my frenz play haha..aniwae nice to meet him..now i psychoing him to play maple he psychoing me to play conqueronline haha.. -.- but after a while..i really really buay ta han le..so went to bed.. -.- keep drifting out and in of slp last nite..now still exhausted.. think i go back to bed bah..no energy..outcome will still be the same..i will still lie on the table haiz....
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What is losing...what is winning... what u gain.... in the end all are juz losers in it........

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~ = tired = ~

2006-05-21T16:14:00.000+08:00

Juz got back from badminton with nu er... *tired* actually felt better working out...but enrgy drained :( cant slp now..slp le tonite cant slp ..so muz last this way till 12am..
Gain back some form in maple ..sylice vulture they all r back :X nice to see them again... funny how things are, ppl whu may seem ur frenz turn out to be the ones whu hurt u the most... ppl whu u may juz noe are the ones whu comfort u the most... funny trend .. real life frenz apart of coz..
SO what are friends? I remembered my happiest time in life was in sec... coz frenz are juz frenz ..ppl whu r always there for u... sometimes no need for words to know what u r thinking.. juz pure friendship ..no matter what the difference are .. there will be a way to iron it out... I was hurted too by accusation by back stabbing..but ultimately those with stayed with me... are the ones..whu trusted me and love me for whu i am..thx siying wen vic shishi and more... and ya i am from a neighbourhood skool where most ppl deem us as hopeless and pai kia skool..
Took me sometime to refine my way of toking though when i went jc :X
Now in uni... I am glad i got back a frenz(u noe whu u r :) ) and thats is all that matter.. of coz there r others ade..eileen...3 ge (kuanping)..junwei.. er jie(alvin) .. DATOU(kenlee)..grace.. keke
Sry guys nv catch up much with u all...guess i threw the whole world aside..i am coming back..wait for me :) most of u all graduating le..but keep in contact k..Good luck for u all EXAM :) and of coz not to forget warlords and rougue and legolas :X

= ~ Blog of the day ~ =

2006-05-19T00:50:00.000+08:00

Resolved somethings today... quite relieved ...but sad to find out some... back in maple...is it a right choice? fun...did i haf it? today what haf i done? 1st thing solve a ks war 2nd thing recruitment 3rd thing solve ks thingy 4th solve guild new hierarchy...5th walking up and down ww ... is that what i wan? losing heart again...
Gave myself the break from studies today to sort things out..tml i will be back in my notes... dun wanna think animore dun wanna do anything animore..juz wanna disappear once more...... but can i?

~ = Congratz = ~

2006-05-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

Opps forgot.. GRAT SON !! lvl 120 le..keke i mean lvl 121...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN!!!

~ = Sick of numbers = ~

2006-05-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

Been mugging these few days.. see lots and lots of numbers... haiz.. heng till now no nightmare yet.. keke was in Changi Airport these few days.. was in Delifrance on sun..the coffee sux... so move to Mac for the next few days.. saw alot of interesting sights..haha

1) Police taking "puppy" - saw the police patrolling.. with a white with black patch doggy
so cuteeee...looking at the size ..it look like a puppy keke Try spoting it in T1 but this morn I
saw it in T2
2) Mac in T2 - Restaurant Manager... haha over friendly action..chatting every foreigner he can
find..trying to "sell" the svc of Singapore Mac..haha He was actually guarding one of the
computer for a tourist while the tourist walk towards it..
3) Monk in Mac in T2... not kidding..I saw 2 monks this morn.. :P in mac..nv see what they
"eating" though ..i think green tea bah
4) Airport Cleaner and Mac worker comparing whu more pathetic ... $4 per hour or $5 per
hour but fear being caught using hp or smoking ..fine $3oo -.-

haha, some of the weird observations..but overall I am amazed by Mac's svc.. I was nv chased away and the staff are super friendly.. keke well ....manage to concentrate... tht what i like abt there ..tire le..juz look ard ..can see a lot of heart warming sight.. ppl coming home to their family.. young kids running ard their daddy and mummy...so carefree ...

~ = Backz = ~

2006-05-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

Just came back..keke she look the same :) din get to speak much to her but ..I got a gift from her ..wahaha another wallet ..this one look more presentable than my pink one..
Dinner was a bit awkward though.. with her dad trying to find out more abt her bf then me and my sis trying to control our laughter.. and eating ..long time since we gather round a table and eat..most of the time we juz take a plate grab what's on the table and move off to the living rm to eat, but juz now me and my sis were the last to eat..
Most of the time we hid in my uncle rm.. sobsob living rm too crowded.. then no "legs" for majong..suppose to wait for my auntie and cousin to come back..in the meantime was watching dvd .. the show a bit dumb..but laugh for the sake of laughing.. then suddenly 3/4 through the show, my dad suddenly say he wanna go back le -.-"" that cut short our visit ..if not it will be till .... 11? 12? ..
Throughout the time there...my granny keep looking at me -.- and my auntie telling me what i should eat ..that's one of the reason why i turn up less at my gran house...i know i growing more pale...and i trying to cover up le.. haiz.. it doesn't help that i am still losing weight... my gran is pretty sharp and she can see that I not well... was freezing in the car juz now on the way there and back.. at least if she nv see me..she wun know.. she abit panaroid now eversince she found out we nv tell her my dad condition :x
And I think she nv realise.. I tried to be bubbly and loud ... as much as possible...but my aunt still exclaim my paleness and lerthagicness...i slept a full 11h last night -.- and a short nap in the noon le...sobsob so dangerous..my dad side all so sharp de haiz

~ = SHe is Back = ~

2006-05-13T16:47:00.000+08:00

Today...she is back.. a person I been waiting for... miss her so much for the past 10 mths... but i din contact her.. fear of being reminded... fear that she know what i am thinking.. her return mark 1 yr anniversary of the event ... the event that took me away from my life.. Now she has returned...will I return as well...
Dunno why, I am having cold feet now.. haf a feeling her first patient will be me.. she knew me the best, inside out from young.. somethings dun haf to say ..she will know .. *pray* later she dun see through me.. a bit excited..a bit scared... haiz..mixed feeling..
Last 2 yrs at this time... i will be super gancheong...chase my family out of the house asap keke till my dad buay tahan me.. ok i am gan cheong now too...my mum not home yet..i oreadi dressed ready to go out.. :) has she changed? She called me on my birthday...early in the morn... knew she had some changes keke happy for her.. :P *excited*
She's the only one whu can scold me upside down..and i wun think of strangling her :x and I am suppose to be the older one -.-"""""" haha ironic how different we are.. she the strong one within...i am the strong one exterior... from young I will be the "protector" anione touch her..i will kick that person ass.. but when we grew up it was the other way rd...she kicked the ass of ppl whu "bully" me.. haha cant believe she ever "threaten" my ex .. I am more extrovert...but she is more introvert...she;s the one always pulling me to study...and me the one always thinking of playing..needless to say whose studies better :X
We are always being compared.. till now i guess...but nv had we had that "thinking" of competing with each other.. I always get into trouble and she always bail me out of it , in my parents eyes..she's the angel...i'm the devil... -.- Many may wonder why a person like me ..actually love reading novels...well..she's the one whu brought me into it.. :P I am fierce...she is fiercer..-.- haha still dare say i fierce .. she nv quite approved my choice of frenz thou :x let's see ..i think the only one she ever approved was shishi... other than our common frenz...
Now that we are grown up...we both haf different lives.. she will turn out to be a gd psychaitrist (she had practise on me on the last 15 years) and me...I dunno what my path lead me to yet.... excited...

~ = Cold = ~

2006-05-13T12:12:00.000+08:00

The weather is so cold.. its chilling.....

~ = Dreamless Night = ~

2006-05-12T10:59:00.000+08:00

This few nights, my dreams are so weird.... constrasts to 2 nights ago.... last night was basically dreamless...onli remeber a fragment of it...I was waiting for someone to come... other than that ...i cant recall a thing... had a gd night slp though..nv wake up in the middle of the night... The roller coaster feeling still remain...
Wanna feel as numb as I was the day before my exam... but ...couldnt... my warrior is still lvl 21 .. gonna lvl it till lvl 30 later... hopefully can numb myself in there.. NUMB me PLS !!!!!! 1 mth+ more.. its 1 yr ..what am I gonna do that day.... i dun wanna go out...neither do i wanna stay at home... if time reverse and i was at home....would it be much different....
Please NUMB me pls... I dun wanna feel the sadness, the anger, the guessing .. or ani other feeling animore..

~ * Roller Coaster * ~

2006-05-12T02:58:00.000+08:00

Decided to gif myself 2 days leave from studies....dunno why feeling weaker and weaker... today my mum brought up the topic to go see doc :( ..today again my mood is on rollar coaster.. happy sad devasted ..anithing but numb... I WANNA BE NUMB!! haiz..
Aniwae was playing my baby warrior to get my mind off some things... kinda miss old times ... was killing snails...mushrooms...octopus..and some woodblock.. dunno y suddenly train alone so boring...i too use to trainning with others le... but initially it start off as fun.... then i found out something that i shouldnt haf known...= angryz..deceived..sad... haiz
Last night had a weird dream..think i think too much le... mind full of stuff no where to pour to... dun wish to bother my frens...i think even if they dun feel tire..i oso will ...will learn to deal it myself bah.. haiz..hope can slp perpectually...then dun need to think so much...
Only 1 thing to look forward to...my cousin coming home tml... miss her so much...guess she dealt with what's has happened well... whereas i.... haiz... i wanna see her so much..but yet seeing her..bring me memories... telling me ..1 yr haf pass...
What am I sad with?? so many things i dunno how to proportion it le.... haiz

~ = Soci = ~

2006-05-11T02:20:00.000+08:00

Had my soci paper...think i really did it injustice..haiz.... adding the time i use to prepare for it....= 1day onli...thats all. All the days in skool, that i tring to concentrate ..i couldnt..had my mind on other things... Yest I shut myself in my sis room whole day, force myself to prepare 2 essay. Logging in to maple to find ppl to chat during dinner in the room, abit disappointed no one tok to me sobsob ..so log off le...i continue preparing.. then at night be4 slp i log in my baby cleric and heng car and noobsin were there ..lighten my spirit abit.. I am trying to refind the joy to maple..after much persuasion from son...h0pe and the rest. But i still cant bring myself back to where i left off...
Had my mind switch off on frenz thingy and guild thingy...it came as a relieve ..i can concentrate much better. Slpt ard 12 plus..woke up at 3am tot it was 6am -.- scaring myself...haiz.. so continue zz till 5am..woke up continue study... till noon 2.30pm exam. Walk into exam hall realise someone else took my seat..then need to get invigilator to clarify...heng i start in time..but most of the qn i din study for it..and the 2 qn i prepare essay for ...1 i din haf time to memorise 1 and it came out..then other one i memorise... it din come out direct -.- so i ended up crapping my way through toking abt some inequality of men and women income...
After the paper i went straight to a jc classmate house for majong.. 1st time i really play with them..all experts -.- the onli time i won was when i really really tire and what i see i juz take. As usual that;s my time winning..dunno why everytime when super tire..i will start winning onli reason.i can think of is..i play without logic.but pretty fun seeing them uptight on what i will take next :x cute ..when i tell them le i not waiting to win..aiyoz...but overall i lost haha but still it was fun. Able to numb myself :) Came home ard 12 plus log in find ppl chat...sad to say onli see des and noobsin.... so ended up whining to des 1h plus and crapping with noobsin for a while. Pity both of them... haha yawnz...shall i declare holiday for myself tomolo? hmm.... Initially planned to go zouk..but think frenz forgot i oso forgot my exam 2.30 -.- sianz.. i need to destress!!!! Good now i super duper tire..so can dun think and juz zz haha
Next paper ...1 mth time :X *pray*

~ = Thoughts = ~

2006-05-08T18:07:00.000+08:00

Been blogging alot.. no choice..in skool bored of studying = blog... juz read my previous posts.. it sound so diff from what I type nowadays..since when haf i lost those laughter and joy... I dun really know...when haf i start rejecting fun and joy...i oso dunno... was it 4 yrs ago? was it last yr? Well the people i start this blog for obviously dun read it animore ... i do haf another blog www.xanga.com/iceyzz ..funny though i type differently in those blog as well...yet when i recall when I type them..I was happy..till now i still feel the tinge of happiness ...
Is it still possible to seek back those joy? To seek back my old self..the vibrant and joyful Jasmine... I read my own testi as well..ppl whu describe me as that.. can i return back to how I was..or is it onli in Camps that I can be like that...
There is a strange affinity between me and camps.. only in camps can i throw away all my troubles and juz go thru the 3 Days 2 night being mother hen to my campers and in the past my rovers... I can dun slp for the 2 nights and yet still feel energetic .. I simply love the feeling of being away from the buzy lifestyle..and lead a slow yet fun pace of life in camps. My parents can nv understand why i can forsake all the comfort and go to some campsite or forested area for a few days... especially when i scream at the sights of bugs... but yet in camp i can even slp with rats keke... I cant swim..yet i love kayaking and the sea... strange ..contradicting me haha...
Saw this post when i type abt starting maple... still rember the days where i played on my own.. training alone with snails... -.- it sux...haha and oso the PQ days when i was always amazed at the rate dol can go track and the rate at which kenneth can click... then came the days when i am in fireboar finding glass shoes... rats i can nv find it.. not even till lvl 101 ..and then came the day when i first arrive in ossy and got struck in that tupid tower and met burningwiz whu led me out to el nath....but he's gone as well ..in bootes or cass... then i was playing with small kittens always tio bully..and met snowowl whu help me but she seem to be gone as well....then as lvl goes up I played at star pixies... and got "killed" by idiots...haha but gd thing i knew laylaashley..but she oso log in less le.. then came the snowboards days... those were one of the happiest days bah.. i was only one amongst my frenz whu can hunt bsb.. so all depend on me ..sobsob.. so a cute lvl 60 firemage went to pepe to be slaughtered.. luckily met speedyslayer there.. :) It was so fun hunting with them.. haha but speedy left w/o a word too... Then at pepe oso met archdale..he oso left suddenly..so did proof ..so i was left alone again at lycan...keke and noe wenfeng thru megaphone haha... that is the amazing part..yet we stayed on as gd buddies in maple .. then came ryoshiro -.- da ben dan!! haha he definitely bring me much joy in maple..juz letting me tease him...but he started chionging like mad..haf less time to tok le bah.. then H0pe0rPain :P my ew cum rogging buddy but..he gone oso -.- Then come the days in MSG ..where i meet disturb starmage ben lokisx car dennis they all...my next happiest block of days ..keke everyday come home str8 log in msg find them .. then all the chatting complaining abt party members etc ..wahaha so funny when a gp of us wanna leave ..my first tot was to gif my buddies they all the place to train.. yet this is the gp of buddies whu make me wanna visit them at msg no matter how tire i was..logging in to my cleric can see them chatting..and chatting with them is so jovial ..suddenly make all the tireness seem negligible.. but one day when i log on..they are all gone..
Happy one moment? Sad the next? happen so many times y am i still not use to it...

~ = Forgetful day = ~

2006-05-08T15:04:00.000+08:00

Now charging mp3 again -.-" this morn wanted to charge but ..power was cut off due to maintanance, ended up i haf to charge my hp in school as well. Amazingly I manage to wake up on my own and by 10am I was out of my house... keke reach ard 11pm heng ah got seats in the library.. But sad thing is..today i study alone -.- I walk ard skool oso nv see a frenz haiz 1st paper tomolo, so school abit empty only those foreign students.
After 4 h of preparing for essay I realised I prepared the wrong essay -.- It should be social change but i preparing for structuralist Marxism... jialat..and I forgot to bring my study guide which means I can onli do the social change essay tonight. Oh well.. I guess later is preparing for bureucracy essay -.-" sianz... think i gonna do 2 overnight marathon to finish my both esssay and memorising sect A answers. Suddenly accounting seem so much easier haha... at least juz do and do... I always find studying at night more useful..day time too much distraction.. only problem is that now that my maid in my room...i cant do it in my room..neither can i cruelly ask my sis move out of her room .. so..i guess its the living room tonite.
20 min more for it to be fully charged... and I am back to my essay... weekend slack too much le.. kinda looking forward to after exam le keke thinking a million ways to celebrate haha and another million things to do .. but well maybe I will start working like the rest of my frenz converting to part time studies as well... but what sector?? by virtue of what i studying ...it should be accounting/banking.. but my interest is definitely not there... I guess no one do camps for nice resume... entering adulthood ..so fan... wahahaha

~ * New wallet * ~

2006-05-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

keke the wallet i got yest ..sianz my sis exclaim..too childish for my age -.- but well its much better than my previous pouch

~ = Dinner = ~

2006-05-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

Haha ironically woke up with tummy ache...at night dinner was at Chomp Chomp...keke it was Sambal sotong...Lala ..Stingray...satay beehoon -.- all spicy de haha dunno no feeling when eating it... my siblings keep complaining y sugar cane haben arrive ...onli me still continue eatting :x die ..can imagine later at night ...what will happen :x
Was fighting with my dad for the hums... :P in the end my poor bro was the victim of our "fight" ..his shirt was stained with chilli when i accidently fling a cuttlefish into the chilli ..haha..but my dad still won grr... but by close margin...oh gosh i begining to sound like the GE thingy :P tok too much with my dad le..but i think he rather happy that his daughter is returning to reality keke I can at least discuss some issues with him despite not reading the papers for so long..ad he still haben gif up pulling me into grassroot work haha ...seem a much better choice than maple
So long nv felt this way le... ever since my dad tense up with the GE thingy haha aniwae got to see his car bumper..not as bad as i tot..the way he describe as if the whole bumper drop off or something -.- but he seem quite unaffected lah.. if its last time..he will be very very angryz and no one dare go near him or even mention the matter ..
haha somehow i felt this dinner is to make up for that day for screaming at me for no reason in the morning ..haha he remebered my sotong and lala although i nv remind him and my fried oyster :x basicsally all my fav food :)
keke I still remeber got once he scolded me badly..then i was so upset..next day i come home he gave me a limited edition SIA pilot bear which he refused to get for me at first..so it happily join my SIA bear collection :) keke DADDY so nice :P for that i will endure all the scoldingsss :X
Argh my tv still down..and i din touch soci today...but i haf a nice time in lala land yawnz...haha
Now rebuilding my mp3 library..got a few of my fav song from the past...XJapan...this gp's song beri nice but..they haf a sad ending.. though i dun understand the lyrics but the way they sing is with feelings..message is pass thru their singing and not the lyrics.. abit noisy though some of the songs haha ..now onli got 8 songs in my mp3 file -.- long way to go..haha need to get my sis send me some .. those reading this..come come send me nice nice songs thru msn :P hmm..dunno if wanna revamp my blog...then can upload some of these nice songs here

~ = OUCH!! = ~

2006-05-07T11:49:00.000+08:00

Sob!!! nice weather to slp in...then woke up by tummy pain ... Grr....ate the pao ji wan le..still pain..sianz..my mum comtemplating on taking me to doc again -.- food poisoning...later muz call them see if they tio as well.. haf a feeling is the sambal hotdog :x haha but funny...i eat sambal sotong stingray etc oso no problem -.-
Nice cold weather.... haiz but got to mug le..3 days left to soci ... keke hardly see all my family members at home haha finally mummy cook lch ... yummy... no more maid cooked food :P she off today...dunno y so happy haha.. blog later tonite bah...when i finish the max weber and karl marx social change and bureaucracy thingy...
Hate theory papers!!! i cant memorise..short term memory -.-

~ = First Day w/o Maple = ~

2006-05-07T02:33:00.000+08:00

keke tot it will be a miserable day...but turn out pretty well. :P Was abt to go down to NUS study with kp and frenz when my frenz called...so ended up in Orchard :) . I VOTED for the 1st time keke fast process though..after that it was meeting her in Orchard. Keke dinner at NYDC...i haf a thing for that place dunno why...yummy !!! mushroom ham pasta :P Then we were deciding between movie first then ktv or str8 ktv. While she was shopping for a jacket... a nice wallet caught my eyes...it's time i get a proper one :P Most imptly itssss PINK!! haha..shall take a pic upload it tomolo..after my frenz got her jacket..we went kbox.. 2 person singing so shiok! I sang 2 of my fav songs at least 3 times each :x
After KTV ended, we went down meet my kor :P Liquid Kitchen... hmm really liquid kitchen..was siting below their air con.. and the next thing i know..i haf water dripping all over me..rainning inside..and the manager really got no PR skill..poor waitress...luckily we nice customer haha..we change to outside seat. :) Then later my frenz request for ash tray..it was fresh from the freezer ..collecting water droplets haha... We ordered some finger food :P keke i keep attacking the wings...the sambal saussage a bit too spicy for me..esp when i dun like beers... so one jug of beer, my frenz down 1 cup, i down 1/4 cup and the rest..= kor :x i am such a bully :P But sad thing is they close at 2am ..-.- we found so seats..but the moment we sit down..we see lightening and started to drizzle -.-""" so no choice its back home.
I was taking off my shoes then got a shocked...haha my dad in jovial mood to "scared" me -.- He struck half his body out from the kitchen and stare at me while i enter and taking off shoe..and he wearing the PAP uniform all white -.- we all had a gd laff... and as expected..he juz realised his daughter grown up to adult....and ask me ...if i wanna join PAP as member... -.- was expecting it last year..but well he let me off for 1 yr.. haha he knew my interest was partly there..but..juz that entered SIM le..no one really tok abt politics there... maybe a few yrs more bah...:P I am still a kid :P
Okie so i slacked 1 whole day today...3days more to soci argh...tml diedie muz locked myself up to study... sry kp nv join u all today... haiz...and my TV is still down..sianz..my number 1 entertainment deleted ..no 2 entertainment down...but my dad was exclaiming it died at the right time haha so that i can study more..make me wonder if he secretly hope that the tv will not work till 13 june when i finish my paper ... wahahaha argh..muz get him to change the tv soon! but...probably not this mth bah..he juz had an accident this morn..while reversing his car rammed into another car which is also reversing..heard the repair fee gonna be exotic..:x he too gan cheong this morn le -.-

~ = Dunno why she bu de = ~

2006-05-06T09:37:00.000+08:00

Juz deleted maple last night, dunno y as i deleted it, feel she bu de...but yet when i inside playing i feel sadder as time go by. Yest for the last 1h i was online, I was in fm giving items and chatting.. wanted to visit all my buddies but last nite onli 18 online.. din even get to say a proper goodbye to some.
Yest someone ask me, why is the guild thingy so impt..I also dunno how to reply..it's like something looking at me telling me..ur frenz haf abandon u... I find no joy in logging in my cleric and i onli haf "daddy" to talk to. Perhaps in 1.5months time i will find the courage to face up to the whole thing again. And hopefully by then i can find a reason to stay on.
Maple was all along an escape from reality, a dream i indulge in...now the dream is broken its time to move on in life facing what i suppose to face. Maple did bring me alot of joy, when i played in there all ny attention focus on the game on having fun.. I wun think of anithing but how to stay alive from the monster..and of coz my nightmare is hafing those monster chasing me. Last night, I had a peaceful slp... no dreaming of maple ...juz some real life stuff. But once I woke up this morn... my mind is back on the matter. dunno whu i can tok to to disperse such feelings, des? he will laff at my childishness hush? he too buzy for it not to mention... frenz ard me? erm i think they cheering that i stop maple
The feeling is so bad.. its juz like when my grandpa abandon me... one day he was there..one day he left without a sound without a goodbye.. Abandon to alot of ppl haf a lot of meaning ... being abandon so many times
i should haf gotten use to it.. One moment i can be supper happy and contented with what i haf, but overnight everything would change...something would be cruelly taken away from me..all along it haf been this way..from young till now... I rather not have anithing at all to start with, then i wun be upset when its gone. My life is like watching a drama..things that i see on tv..happen to me -.- all the unbelievable things that ppl tot is juz a show... yep to me it was so real....
Hmm example? I had a kor i got along beri beri well...coz i nv haf an older brother and really treated him as 1. But one day overnight, when i was quarreling with one ger that was in the wrong, he chose to side the ger. The ger continue harassing me for a few days online, scolding all the stuff etc, he nv say a word...juz allow this stranger to scold his sis... from that day onward, i deleted him from my icq irc hp and even change my hp. For 2 years, he nv contacted me... neither did I contact him. But i miss him so much then couldnt understand y he abandon me when at that time i needed him the most... 2 yrs of my life i lead without this older brother. 1 yrs later, one day I got an icq msg from him. It was then i realise for these 2 yrs we were both stubborn, he did track me but...i din.... for the 2 yrs we lost contact ..we were nv as close as be4 it seems that something does change... well now we are still bro and sis but...for the 1 yrs it was blank for us... something that cannot be make up for..
So why am I saying all this? coz i am at the crossroad once more...being frenz back with another person hoping the friendship remain the same...but onli after 1 day...i realise its not gonna be the same animore....

~ = Charging Mp3 again = ~

2006-05-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

Haha nowadays, the time i blog is when i charging my mp 3 player in school -.- after quiting maple..I guess I will slowly have more time for daily update :P juz like before..
Manage to resolve the "quarrel" with this fren... but dunno why still feeling down. But definitely feel relief, much better than hanging midair not really knowing what's happening.. but the damage is done..now is the time to "atone" for it. But exam come first so another fren will help till i come back.
Juz saw my chatbox :) realise huili jie oso see icy de blog keke Hihi ..heard u play maple as well..babylmage -.- haha how come i din know hmm... icy late bloomer :P played since last yr sept. Son thx for the msg :) Signing in my msn now *cross finger* pls dun let me be caught ..haha ..wonder what will happen if i am caught using msn in skool library :P but truthfully i dun even think i can identify whu the administrator here..haha that shows how much i use the facility here.
keke caught my cousin online :P teasing him abt working and using msn.. wonder if one day i start working will it be like that... haha i do noe when i was working as admin asst 3 yrs back, i was playing neopet in the office :x heng my boss dunno wahahaha
haiz soci paper in 5 days time :x i still trying to gain interest on Max weber and Karl Marx ..grr no them = no need study so much... y not they test maple..qn like which is the first npc u meet on maple island oso beri chim..icy sure pass with FLYing Colours... :P

~ * 2nd blog of the day * ~

2006-05-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

Now in school library using the computer. Seem like they upgraded :P not as slow as it use to be.. Haiz suppose to be mugging in skool but keep thinking about something else.. -.- 8 more days...
I may as well write abt maple in my soci paper. Test me on what monster on which island and what it drop haiz....
At the same time I am figuring out how to solve certain problem which muz happen in the midst of my exam coz of a stupid thing.... What is worse, Saving a wounded thing and abandoning it half way causing it to die faster, or juz leave it alone and let it die away slowly... I would choose the latter, coz at least this gif time for me to react... But since now i am given no choice .. exam or saving that thing?
Alot asking me, y bother so much abt the game... answer is simple... Coz i spend time and effort doing it up, i wun wanna throw it away juz like that...whether it is in the past or now.. i wouldnt throw what i spend effort on easily..unless is the other party abandon me or dun wan me...
Whether its a game, or some hopeless cases .....
I oso wanna throw some things away ... but it is not as easy as to say throw..even thoguht ppl ard me can keep telling me its hopeless ...
Another 20min more my mp3 is charged and its back to mugging time.. in the meantime... I will juz continue blogging.. now listening to the song yuan lai by jj lin.. so nice ..i kinda like some of the lyrics.. Yuan Lai zhu teng tong de biao qin jin si mei you qin xu... a person with no feeling is actually feeling the most miserable.. so what shall i do tonite...thinking abt maple? mugging? watching tv? I haf no idea oso...what to do... feel like juz disappearing from this world... w/o me i think my grandpa is still ard ..w/o me i think my unit is still ard...w/o me perhaps mb2 wun be in such a deep shit now..
Really dunno what else i can say... ablog is for sharing of tots and everyday life..but dunno since when it became a place for me to vent my frustration...yet today there are so much things i wanna say yet cant say it out ... How nice is it if i can juz disappear...without pain..without problems... without all the things that i haf to worry abt...

= ~ A Break ~ =

2006-05-03T06:37:00.001+08:00

Yesterday I took a break from maple. To all my real life frenz...its a relief. Finally i was resting... Was very upset that ppl use some stuff to "threaten" me..I thought that would matter alot to me..but it was lame. The last thing i wan from maple...is being threatened.
I lie on my bed, but i couldnt slp...so i decide to go walk ard again..I called my bro...he was still working and could onli be off work by 11pm...no where to go..i tot of that place ...that place of memory...that place where could bring me peace...as i was on the bus...i was thinking alot..the place i always go to when i am utterly upset and when my mind couldnt be at peace..thinking abt the him whu alwaes caused me to go there, all the lies he told me...all the things that are repeating itself once more.... ( if ken u r reading this..ya its abt u but it doesnt matter animore, i decided to forgive u , so u can stop asking me for forgiveness or what..its both a relief to u and me.)
I reach the place. But strange to say suddenly i dun need it animore.. it seem tat upon reaching its doorstep, my mind went peaceful, there doesnt seem a need for me to walk in animore... coz i know for now...guys are juz jerks plain jerks. Sry buddies..from a ger viewpt, guys can give alot of empty promise that dun need fulfillment isnt it...everytime when i really really wanna trust someone..this person will "abandon" me in a way or another.
On the bus back to where i first started....my bro called,...he was offwork...so decided to meet chomp chomp...but after 5 min, i decided to end this aimless walking..I decided to go home..
Siting at home, the com in front of me...I could haf on the com..check on things...but i juz dun haf the incline to on it...instead i decided to off my hp instead...tonite i shall settle the sotong map for a last time...what follows after that i dunno... as much as i like to build up mb2 one more time...i really dun haf the time to do so...or even the energy...for a lame thing if a person can do that...i can onli say u r childish..thinking it would haf made me very upset. It would have ...if not for the things u r doing...
Ak kor, sorry made u go on a wild goose chase last nite...but for once ...i settle my own mind clearing..and i feel more at peace then ever......perhaps its the right time it happen le..4 yrs of mind torturing...during this 4 yrs.. i wanted so much to go back to that place but yet last nite i was oreadi at its doorstep i turn back ....hope i will nv need that place animore at the least not for my exam period... Let u on some secret.... I am very grateful for the 2 yrs that we din contact, it gave a chance to grow up instead of clinging onto u...though at that time i din understand y u could do that to me and hated u for it...but i nv quite forgotten the kor i ever had..and u r back.... perhaps some days u might "abandon" ur mei..but i am still grateful i haf u as my kor :)
Yawnz I am gg back to bed...after which its skool time ... zzzz....

keke ws thx for the msg .. :)

=~ Pissed? Disappoined?~=

2006-03-21T03:30:00.000+08:00

I dunno what i am feeling now. Never felt so insulted in my life, knowing her too well make me feel even more stupid to even blind myself from it. Many a time, i observe herreaction, when she"criticize other person" when she "greet someone she dislike affectionately" ..sometimes i wonder..will it happen to me? are her smiles real? Is it really liek what others describe to me? I console myself, i minimise what i felt. But today u did it to me, many innocent parties involve. Good thing is that this blog is not seen by our game friend.

Never Have i felt so hurt , not even when my bf dump me for another ger, not when a friend hacked my game acc. Angry? I am not animore.... infact i am lost for words.... I tried to save the friendship but not anymore. The doors are close..i will not allowed myself to be hurt anymore. Bye friend..the last time i will call u this...

~ = Double Pissed now = ~

2006-03-15T09:45:00.000+08:00

Pissed with what? I dunno... sensitive topic? yep i think so...

Let's start.....

Words are hurting esp to a person whu cannot take some harsh truth ..agreed upon whu > frenz ard us ( I can at least haf 5 ppl whu agreed with me)!..been trying to tell her...but when see her dunno how to express it to her without her storming off. What do you do with this frenz? When u r really angryz... confront her? or ? For me i choose not to hurt her and tok to anyother "frenz" abt it instead...infact most of conversation was... i dunno how to say..i dunno how to describe..and this "frenz" twist my words..and it ended up in somone's blog as [ Very nasty thing abt me and this frenz not my rreal frenz]

wtf hell.. I am feeling like an idiot..with no revenue to even frustrate it out :( Why muz it be this way... betray by a frenz.. and i did tell that "frenz" i will find a way to tok to her and why it became some nasty things when it is suppose to be some sharing abt how i feel abt the person and ffinding a soln to deal with it.... I am always told what can i improve on :( and i seriously ponder upon it..is it my fault...is it i am like that..is there any way i can change

[When frenz turn to foe],,,, a word i hear so often that some times i fear the world ard me... why is it so alien ..why is it in sim i find my self some frenz like that ... when i make a frenz i offer nuthing but sincere friendship... when things go awry i pull my self out of it and analyse whta;s wrong... whose fault is it...it take 2 hand to clap...so now i am accuse of not saying nasty thing...

I am nasty and i dash out hurtful but the reality. Alot of ppl ard u dun dare to tell u this out of fear, I dun dare coz of not wanting to hurt.. by the time this blog is publish i had already told u a bit of it slowly...so that u can accept the comments i make,, and now i know why u are sop resentful over it . I am not a hypocripe as ppl ard me woiuld haf known..i dun like i dun hide...if u choose to believe that frenz whu offer me no soln except repeating what i said over and over again the fone so many times that i haf to hang up on her... go ahead...i rest my case

Regard that "frenz", I really dunno to call her a frenz or what... 90% of the time i tok to her i end up more frustrated and pissed *tears* In the end i chose to avoid instead. I really really dun wanna break that friendship, to me frenz are precious instead of complaining to others abt me which i know and kept quiet... y not think abt why i alway hang up the phone. I know its rude and u dun owe me anithing, but understand that i am busy and not keep on toking in the fone when i really haf to put down ...and at the end i haf to hang up on u insteda when u simply refuse to end the call.

Lets pray these 2 frenz see this blog and really sit down with me and tok abt this.
Haiz.,... Life sux for me...

~ = HATE LATECOMERS = ~

2006-03-15T09:21:00.000+08:00

imagine this scenario....

Day 0- make a pact at meet at 10am in skool for study, I slept at 11pm...
Day1 - Woke up @ 8plus to reach skool by 10... reach skool 10.15am quickly went to checkin the room..hope the bking is still there

Reavch le call frenz....frenz still in bed... and reason for being late..coz she was on the phone till 5am

Day 1 - Slept at 3am, frenz dunno what time slp (later than me)
Day2- Struggle to wake up at 8 plus to reach by 10...and quickily go check in the room

In room le call frenz, I abt to go out..and she reach at 11.45am

Day 2 - Specifically warn that frenz to be on time...

Day 3 - The time is 9.36am and she refused to pick the fone

*ps: no apologises no anithing ..juz say she wanna slp some more or simply i am gg out

How many will be pissed with such frenz?

I am the first which is why i am still at home waiting for her to wake up and blogging here.
How many a time i am taken for granted, and I am not exactly an early-riser. I am a typical slp 3-5am wake up 1pm kind of ppl. I dun expect some one to reach be4 me or on time..but haf a limit on how long one canm be late.. 5-15min is acceptable... but when i reach skool and the person is still in bed....i cannot tolerate at all..

It's all abt making an effort to be there on time..and not knowing that someone will check in the rm and u continue slping. And i live at least 10 min further away from skool from that person.

Sorry i am not that nice to bully.. 1 time i can overlook it..2nd time i gif warning 3rd time... i am not gg to be that idiot animore.

~ = Study Study Study = ~

2006-03-14T11:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm.... exam coming... can feel the heat le ..

Is it coz the first yr I slack and flunk 3 papers...ppl oreadi deem me as hopeless? I was laff at and taunt by frenz whu made a bet how many paper i will pass at mock exam in yr 1.. :( then in yr 2... constantly ppl reminding me abt my yr 1 failures...

I started in mar last yr or even after my 21st bday...yet i pass my 6 papers(2paper) more than the rest ...not with flying colours but acceptable grades.. It's bad enuff my parent din like it...and i chose to complete my remaining 5 modules in 2 yr...and it cause alot of ppl to look at me in a different light.. tired of explaining why ..i juz leave it alone... :( think all they want..and no i din choose the do it in 2 yrs coz of dol

Even till now i am oreadi in yr 3, ppl are still regarding me as yr 1 jasmine :( even my own mum whu constantly breath down my neck abt how exp the skool fee is ...and its not my fault i haf to miss so many lessons :( given a choice i rather be in skool than in hospital ... everyone haf their own studying method...so juz leave me alone... i dun haf to explain to anione when I start and how much haf i completed

Enuff of my complaining :) for some happier stuff..later i gonna meet my dearest buddies in sec skool the last i haf seen them was shishi's 21sy bday.. so excited :) shall not let this spoil my mood :)

~ * 5 mth late post * ~

2006-03-13T11:49:00.000+08:00

First of all Paiseh all haha...saw my last blog to be in oct..ard the same time i start maplering..opps... wonder if anione still read my blog :x

Aniwae things gg well for me ..apart from some *health problem* keke...
Getting more and more senile le ....been trying to find frenz whu haf accompany me thru my teenage yrs..(not that i not young..but now promoted to young adult) keke but sad to say...i still look as "childish" as ever. hmm...is that a gd thing?

Aniwae if ani frenz whu play maple..come come find me in aquila :) leave ur nick in my tagboard...will find u online haha

Now now for some updates......

Nov - slacker lifestyle.... keke eat maple slp skool and the cycle goes on....

Dec - hmm.. went malacca during christmas...horrible for me...keep feeling tire...and nausea.. but then the christmas dinner was great ( sobsob my pocket got holes) muz go again with my parents this yr....keke din buy alot of stuff... but...... the delifrance there CHEAP haha and of coz nice...

Keke one of my cousin got married on 26th dec... :) My congrats to them... first time i receptionist after so many time of being sisters... >.< ppl say do too many time jie mei no gd :x
no wonder icy still single till now :X

Jan - CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!... but sad to say..this yr new yr isn;t that nice for me... :( The first new yr is always tough for ppl whu lost their loved ones...my granny teary eyes...the reunion dinner was eaten with my granny trying to control her tears... nevertheless at my mum;s side...we went ktv while the "lao ren jia" play majong haha... hmm...my cousins are all great singers esp my cousin's new bf...haha he is in Super band .. when i noe which gp he is will post here ..muz duo duo support...

Jan oso mark the first time i in hospital since 8.

Feb - Nice valentine day present...haha my dad discharge at 5pm juz to go valentine dinner with mummy...and for me...finally a gd rest after so many days of "fear" and anxiousity ....and i sick of hospital food,.,,,, not to mention met a "unknown object" in the lift argh...

At nite...darling dol... ask me out...tot she sad sad so went supper with her..in the end .. end up being beri extremely bright...

Sobsob i suddenly develop high fever on 23rd and went hospital...came home rest rest then when i log on maple.. someone hacked me !!!! sobsob all my stuff gone...
and 3 days later i was admitted into hospital again :x so bored.... no mac no kfc no sakae...onli horrible hospital food .

Mar - this mth...hmm...after in and out of hosp. so many times.... finally can heave relieve and start studying..should be ani problem till...6 mth later :x pray ..keke

Now now ...where i find time for this post since i always mappling :x keke i in skool studying with my laptop and no calculater...so can;t do my acc qn... F4 F4 ( Cryz in maple term) waiting for doldol to appear with calculator ..but when i call her she still slping ...F5 ( Mouth open) sobsob she chat chat on fone till 5am while jasmine become piggy at 11pm :x

~ = Super Late Post = ~

2005-10-11T11:20:00.000+08:00

haha..nv update for 1 mth plus le...

School haf started.... but strangely life still pretty relaxing ... hmm...muz start studying soon..sighz no momentum ...
Juz got my notebk... hehe now upating using it..so happy!! keke.. at the very least when i "camp" at my gran's place i can be online haha since my uncle oso got his router. The best abt this com is that it is super portable...not too heavy for me (like my bro's one) *sweat*
So wat haf i been doing for this 1 mth plus?

- My Nephew was borned....

So cute, juz went to my aunt place on sun and my cousin was still heavily pregnant.... the following thurs... he was borned.. so amazing :) though not my first nephew...but this cousin of mine played with me since young... in a way she see me grow up, I was estatic when she got married 2 yrs back... and now... she has a kid haha time flies man...
btw the baby is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

- Majong session...

More majong sessions haha...as usual at bt house :P hehe with the usual ppl ....

- Camps...

Went for a 2 d 1 n camp to do belaying... so sad,... i fly dunno how many times despite the kids looking smaller size than me :( sob!!!!!! haha other than that the camp quite enjoyable lah..the first nite we went out for dinner... so spicy...
Recently went for a half day camp... sianz... at least i din make a loss...poor dol...make a loss...

- Makan Session

Went to Tian Tian Huo Guo xiao chu for dinner ...damn nice lor... pretty ex but worth it in term of the taste... haha next time i go muz eat the tomyam flavour.. :P thinking of it make me drool..... now muz save up to treat my family there on the last day of my sis O kevel paper. keke

- City Venture

End off this post with the CIty Venture that took place last sat. This yr there were 15 groups, and ard 30 gm. haha my station is at CHinatown street...the place for tourist to see our chn goodies... we hid a few places , some pretty easy to find..but yet a lot of gp can;'t find us... sighz..in the end me and dol take turn to look for them. Wahaha, apart for a few attitude gps, the rest of the participants were prety good sportz... and at the end of the day, a few gp went home with attractive prizes!! *regretz* should haf participated!@@

~ = Belated Blog = ~

2005-09-05T12:10:00.000+08:00

hmm...din blog much for this 2 weeks...

Let's see.... these 2 weeks..din do much oso... Went for welfare chalet... result release..do ecr2 etc..

Welfare Chalet - Ok lah..went on fri nite...but din get to play much majong... sobsob..then on sat i look alike a zombie..quite stone..probably too tire and coz of the place i am in ..a sad place which evolve lots of memories.. Left the chalet for a while in the evening horrified top come back and find most haf went home..only left me and karen yr 3, a few yr 2 and the rest yr 1...so in the end when bt suggested going his house for mj..we jump at the oppuntunity! So we went over to bt house ( me karen yunyun gq vincent and serene) mj all the way... and @ ard 5 plus..we slept :) nice bed...the gers in 1 of the rm..and gq they all ps all the way till morn... and once again BT is a GOOD host keke..

Result Release - Hmm compared to last yr my result this yr is "fantastic". Not as in beri good...but at least i cleared all my six modules.... with low average except for 1 of the module. So..i feel happy and sad at the same time. Happy coz of that module that acheive gd grade..but sad coz my af din hit high score.. it is quite pathetic for a 2nd attempt. The rest still not that bad...i scored 35 for my LBO ..heng ah!!! Cannot imagine memorising the case law again.NIGHTMARE!!!

ECR 2 - Been deciding whether to do my degree in 3 or 4 yrs. One hand scare of stigma.. the other hand scare of explaining to my relatives..whu haf been expecting me to grad by next yr. Don't exactly like the idea of walking in skool and ppl asking..."I tot u grad le?" or even now when i attend my soci clazz..."I tot u that gm, wat u doing here?" ... but then...... I am doing it in 4 years!! decided... coz my modules really heavy ...almost all killers and my core somemore... i am not aexactly one whu like to take risk and i need 60 for all the 4 new modules.. tough but still i haf to do my best...even if it means taking graduiation photo alone :(

All along in life i've been pursuing to complete my studies in the shortest time...even when my A level was not ideal...i din even once consider retaking it... taking 6 modules last yr was a bad decision, coz when during exam time...i "head big"..study like mad...rushing for time etc...
Dun think my dad like my decision now alot...but will prove it to him I make a right decision. :)

Well at least this resulkt booast my morale abit.. show that i can do it when i study hard! *pray* i dun play so much ...

~* Slacker *~

2005-08-23T02:57:00.000+08:00

Been leading slacker lifestyle....sleepsleepsleep..wahaha...

Now can't slp so decided to update bloggie... :P been playing maple these few days..no incentive to read up my soci...so decided to allocate a day to it! hehe WEDNESDAY shall be soci day!! Keke... Wed oso Yvonne vs HZ day for pool....jiayou Yvonne!!! haha my idol....

Suddenly feel old...sighz...should haf gone to slack be4 coming SIM ...at least if i enter last yr or this yr i feel more in place..haha mostly ard my age... now they come in..i going out ..sighz...and i dun wanna end my skool life so soon sobsob....all the fun...etc...

This sat = welfare dept outing...still remeber last yr's outing...haha done by jj and yushan they all... and thx to jj this yr i bringing fried rice.... but sad to say may not be able to make it for bbq...onli can deliver food. *sighz* 2nd bbq I am missing.....I love wingssss and sotongssss...

OH YA!!!! THANK YOU YANGMUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for helpign my tagboard :P *hug*

~= Photos of MGM =~

2005-08-18T19:35:00.000+08:00

Go there see see k.....

http://www.mgm2005.fotopic.net/

For those whu haven add me msn.,..my msn add => pologal84@hotmail.com <--dun laff.....it was set up long long ago...haha when i was still a little ger ;)

2005-08-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

Fellow Welfarians!

2005-08-18T19:24:00.001+08:00

*whistle* Chiobusss.....Yvonne and Samantha!!

2005-08-18T19:24:00.000+08:00

Pink Vs Blue!!

2005-08-18T19:23:00.000+08:00

"Dao kia"

2005-08-18T19:22:00.000+08:00

Guess whu????????

2005-08-18T19:21:00.000+08:00

Bowling balls!!!

2005-08-18T19:20:00.001+08:00

Doldol!!!

2005-08-18T19:20:00.000+08:00

CHIOBUS!!!

2005-08-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

3 Babes...

~* = MGM =*~

2005-08-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was AGM 2005 :P ...was kinda looking forward to it...afterall yr 1 come in...but the biggest attraction but oso the biggest disappointment was ......THE FOOD@@@@ went to Marina South for dinner...sobsob..food not nice..end up eating lala the whole nite :P

But ..the saviour of the day was BOWLING~!!!!! finally something to play haha... :P Open 4 lanes... 2 for welfare ...2 for Karen's OG... ..all expert le..luckily i manage to get slightly above 100 phew...haha improving...150 the next time..wish me luck!

Apologized to my SP for not recognising him..so paiseh... :x haha .. hmm...for those whu still dunno whu he is...spot him in the mgm pic...the more "flowery" one keke...

Today went to skool with 1 "sore" eyes..looking damn studious...hehe even went to the library to research for materials for my project....end up borrowing 4 books ...the sad part is the libraian even taught me how to borrow books kaoz..so "xia shui".... she uz be wondering which yr i am from haha..

~ = Weekend = ~

2005-08-16T00:22:00.000+08:00

Went over to the exco's chalet on fri..last min decision..hehe reach ard 10 plus.....mj marathon... haha..ate some cmi beer and lobster crackers as forfeit....
Sat nite after the national dinner went again...this time round..more majong!! keke,.,.. was shocked that some ppl still remeber how drunk i was during Di Orientation... *paiseh*
Sun went for Rogue outing....keke...went swiming.... with sk as instructor... not that bad lah..juz drank a lot of water!! amazed i din drown!.. After that was pizza ....yummy..!! but then by then was too tired le..abit stone liao... after that went up yvonne's house ...juz stared at tv...
Today slept till 3 pm...yawn..still tire... Went with sam and kenny for my SOTONG!!!! finally...been craving for it since dunno how long ago... keke.. nice!!